Yesterday's Near Perfect Almost Became Today's Excuse.
Friday, May 06, 2011
So the title really says it all.
I did so well yesterday and instead of beating myself up over all the days I have wasted not doing so well (YES I do that!!) I congratulated myself. I was proud of myself. That is something that does not come naturally to me so this is progress!!
I ate within my ranges (although did eat that pesky creme egg which had been staring at me from the cupboard since Easter :)), did my ST, went for a walk (and beat my best time), did all my schoolwork I had planned, drank all my water (+2) and got the sleep I needed.
The only hitch was that all of this good and healthy activity took me until 1am so in order to get enough sleep I had to sleep in (it is Sat here).
This is where today nearly went completely awry.
I have a party tonight and I don't go out often enough at the moment and my friend has been so patient with inviting me out so I HAVE to go. My schedule today has ST, walk, study for at least 6 hours and then my friend is picking me up to help get party started! I also have to find something cute to wear and am feeling pudgy (need I say more!!?).
It is now 11am and I have done 1 hour of study and eaten my (healthy YAY ME!!) breakfast .
I am getting picked up at 3.30pm - that leaves 4 hours for at least 6 hours worth of activity. Ugh...
I am seriously running out of time to get everything done so what is going to give??
- "It is the most dispensable and I did so well yesterday"
- "I can just 'catch-up' tomorrow"
- "I just HAVE to get my work done it is THE priority"
- "I did so well with planned exercise yesterday I can take one day off"
Yesterday was the FIRST day I have done well in a long time. This does not mean I get a break already. I am serious about getting healthy and staying there so there are no breaks here.
Study is THE priority?? Since when??
Ahh... yes I really do put study first (well, second, as my son and his welfare, physical and emotional, definitely comes first but you get the gist).
I have made a commitment to 4 things in my life right now: my son, my health, my friends and family, and my studies.
THEY SHOULD BE IN THAT ORDER.
Our family motto (for my son and I) is:
"PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THINGS"
I often forget to include myself in this equation so where that list would have previously been: my son, my studies, my friends and family, and then my health, I am attempting to practice what I preach to my boy;
PEOPLE (including me!!) ARE ALWAYS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THINGS.
People (I) am more important than things (STUDY).
People (MY FRIENDS) are more important than things (STUDY).
Study is important to my future and my son's future but should not be priority number one. In order to have a future I must have my health. To have my health I must have a healthy social life. Study IS a high priority but does not deserve the status it has been holding in my life.
So now I have rearranged my priorities instead of my calendar, which is the change I need, and I will just work extra hard on my studies tomorrow!!
Right now to dredge something out of my closet that won't make me look middle-aged and frumpy... that's another whole blog hahahaha....
PS. I did manage to drink 2 glasses of water while writing this so it was not entirely wasted time.