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The next 5 lbs

Monday, May 09, 2011

Okay so I was just laying in bed stressing and finally decided the hell with it! I'm putting off sleep another 15 min to write my first blog (for the 2nd time around, lol) so i can get some peace.

I made a goal for myself at the beginning of April when I weighed in at 232 that by the end of May I would be 212 and reward myself with a PT package! (Can't wait!)

So here I am.. 6 weeks later, 217 lbs and 5 lbs left to go. I wouldn't go so far to say the last 15 lbs have been easy but they've had a nice flow. Well for some reason when I start getting around 215-218 is when this gets tough. I don't know what it is, but this weight range has been a stage I've been stuck at for a long time.

Years ago I set out on this journey once before. Christmas of 2008 I weighed in at my high of 260 lbs. A year later I was 212. Then I got into a bad relationship and just stopped focusing on me. A year later after a horrible ending to that relationship I got back on the wagon for a bit.. going from 225 to 214. That 214 was a year ago. I wasn't healed from that relationship and was using my workouts as an escape and coping mechanism. But it only worked for so long before I found other unhealthier ways of coping only to eventually let myself slip right back down that slippery slope. Thus finding myself at 236 a few months ago in Feb.

So it's not so much about the next 5 lbs but what happens after the next 5 lbs. I need to make it through this and past this for ME. I need to find a healthy balance of body, mind and spirit... but one can't be whole without the other two so that's something I'm going to need to put a conscious effort into every single day til i get er down.

But I WILL reach that goal! MORE importantly, I will reach the goal after that and the goal after that and the goal after that.......... I will not stop.

So here's to setting the NEXT goal emoticon Cheers to healthier me and you sparksters! emoticon emoticon
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  • DAISY92189
    Good luck! I know you can do it, can't wait to hear how the PT package goes. Best hopes and wishes for all your goals. emoticon
    3302 days ago
  • JAMES731
    I wish you the most luck and hopes. You are possible.
    3303 days ago
    Nicole... how is that even when you are blogging about your frustrations and your concerns, you still seem to motivate me. LOL.. you are an amazing woman!

    I think the fact that you have lost 15 lbs in a month is awesome! I would say you are on the right path and that your diet and exercise routine is going to keep taking you where you want to go. Like you told me though... make sure you are mixing it up! Don't let your body get in a routine and get stuck.
    3303 days ago
  • JOANNA202
    Good luck getting through that goal! I have one of those too and I'm sure it's more of a mental barrier than a physical barrier and it'll feel great to get through. I reckon it's quite scary thinking about being able to hold steady in the future when you've yo-yo-ed in the past, but where there's a will, there's a way!

    3304 days ago
  • LOLLIE62
    Good for you! I do best when I am conscious about my food choices and behavior (including thinking) every day. Sometimes it's just slow, but loss is steady and stays off once it's gone.
    You're on your way!
    3304 days ago
  • SALEX52
    Twenty pounds in 2 months is pretty aggressive--especially when you have to work through a point that you know is tough. I hope you will focus on some other goals to get you through the next 5 pounds--5 fruits and vegetables each day/consistent workouts/plenty of water/in bed by 11PM--anything liek that that is part of the journey.
    It's not always about the number of pounds by a certain date.

    You'll be looking back asking yourself "why was that a hard weight to get past? I can't remember any more!" And you'll be laughing!
    3304 days ago
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