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Sometimes It's Hard...But You Get Back Up

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Today I had a difficult run. Summer-like weather has finally hit Chicago and I wanted to go running first thing in the morning. But I had a late night last night watching scary movies and didn't get to sleep until 3 a.m. SO my run had to wait until after planting flowers and then lunch, when the girls took their nap (or attempted to take their nap, I should say).

It was hot. I planned ahead, and wore shorts, only one sports bra and a tank top. I pulled my hair back and I was off. From the start I had an inkling that it was gonig to be a hard run. Once I warmed up it didn't get easler, the whole time it felt like I was running through mud. (I love this expression, but yet I have never really for real ran through the mud, but I imagine this is what it would feel like: running in place almost, the wind against you, the sun beating down and you're not going anywhere. oh, and it hurts, LOL).

The route I take is hilly and at one point as I was barely making it up a hill, an older dude - at least 20 yrs. older than me and who looked out of shape - passed me.

Then as I turned the corner some random woman yelled something out of her car at me, I could only make out the word "run".

That was it.

That was the point where I wanted to throw in the towel.

I just was so tired, I had run 2.5 miles, I intended on 3, but 2.5 is good, right? But that wasn't my plan. I started to walk and a song came on my iPod, "Move Along" by The All American Rejects, the same song that have inspired so many here on Spark, and also pushed me through the hill at the Shamrock Shuffle 8k last month.

I could DO this.

So I began again. I ran, at my pace, and finished the run I had planned on doing.

And you know what? It felt great, not giving up on myself mid-run, and knowing that I could do it. I felt gratitude at the end, for the body God has given me, and for the strength He has also given me. And I want to honor that, and today...well today I know that I did.

And maybe, just maybe that woman was screaming out her car window for me to continue to run, or "You can do it",something encouraging like that.

And if I can do it, believe me, YOU can do it too.

I did a Google search for images that I could post onto this blog and came upon something that could be called fate, serendipity, coincidence, or God. I have a very good friend, Blaize, (DANCINGEARTHMOM) who has been more than a friend, a support, a partner, but more like a sister, a fellow mother, and a good friend, the kind you would love to just talk to over a glass of wine on the porch some night.

Well the first thing that I found in my Google search was a letter from the Universe, which Blaize posts often in her blogs. I found it so uncanny to find this, and it's message so pertinent to ME, TODAY, even though it was initially posted a year ago. I had to include it, it is below.

Blaize, this is for you, too baby, because maybe you needed to read this just as much as I did today. I know you are starting over too, in so many ways, and I know that you will also never give up on your family, or yourself. Love you!

And maybe YOU, Spark reader, could use it, too.

The Universe - You can do it!

Wake up! Remember what excites you. Think of these things, those friends, and the adventures that can be yours. Focus. Care. Fantasize. Imagine. It's all so near. Speak as if you're ready. Paste new pictures in your scrapbook, on your vision board, and around your home and office. Physically prepare for the changes that you wish to experience in your life. You've done this before. You know it works. You're due for an encore. It's time to amaze. That's why you're there.

And it's why I'm here,

The Universe

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    I so needed this! It's been a tough week- just plain busy, and I've definitely felt like it would be easier to throw in the towel. The scale just isn't budging and I'm trying to find balance- so hard! Then I saw your blog and remembered all of the things I want and need to do. It's been tough the last few weeks for workouts. I want to train to run, but 90 + degrees and humidity makes it so hard!!! But you're right- we've made a commitment to ourselves and we've got to push thru! Thank you! emoticon
    3414 days ago
    emoticon on finishing your run and on finding inspiring words and images to share! emoticon

    - Karen
    3416 days ago
  • WHITNEY0814
    I'm proud of you for finishing your run!

    This blog is inspiring and just what I needed today, thank you!
    3416 days ago
    Hey girl! Congratulations! That's actually the best of runs when you feel like running thru mud and YET YOU D-O IT! It's such a triumph over weakness! Easy runs are easy, but the ones that are real hard - they make you a real runner! And especially during those runs your running shoes are erasers erasing the failures and pain of the past. I had that yesterday when I was so hot at the gym (despite the a/c, go figure) that I barely made it thru the 1st K, but then just concentrated on watching the bikers biking up a MOUNTAIN during Giro d'Italia and ended up running over 10K. I actually really have new found respect for myself today!

    Anyway, You did awesome!
    And I gotta say I am ALWAYS impressed by your consistency in running and sports given that you have two young children! You rock!
    3418 days ago
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    That's great - that you continued on your run and gave it all you had. Way to go!
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    3418 days ago
    Gosh darn it Kathy, my dear wonderful partner, crying over here! I just love you. And yes, I really really needed this....thank you for that my dear friend. You are seriously a sister and a best friend to me. I am SO incredibly PROUD of you for so many things, and today just adds one more thing to this list. You inspire me! Every single second. And you give me faith that I can get back to myself, back to being the runner I was....and let me tell you, you have helped me more as a friend, a fellow mother, a partner, and just really a strong woman.....you have changed my life my dear! I adore you. You encourage me to be a better me!
    3418 days ago
  • TEMPEST272002
    emoticon for finishing that tough run! Those are the best and the worst ones. Hurts to push through, but there's a feeling of self-respect that's hard to beat.
    3418 days ago
    Thats how I feel when I plan my workouts in the morning. I feel so loopy & it takes me some times 15-30mins when I am in the mode to do more & more. . .I am challenging myself & reading blogs like yours to help keep me motivated. Also as to not burn myself out like I normally do. I workout so hard that I just stop so this time I am pacing myself & not working out the 2-3hrs everyday except on Sunday. I am always amazed when I see runners & joggers. Keep running!!

    God bless & enjoy everyday!

    3418 days ago
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    Love it! Thank you!
    3418 days ago
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    So very proud of you. Now relax and take care of that body, those joints and muscles, put your feet up, or take that relaxing bath, be good to yourself. Hugs, Debbie
    3418 days ago
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    So very proud of you. Now relax and take care of that body, those joints and muscles, put your feet up, or take that relaxing bath, be good to yourself. Hugs, Debbie
    3418 days ago
    3418 days ago
    Yay!! What a great blog. I'm renting a zipcar and driving an hour outside Chicago in order to run in mud tomorrow (Merrell Down & Dirty 5K) so I'll let you know how it feels!! emoticon

    Great inspiration! It is so hard during the run to say, "This is where it is hard, and this is where I keep going." Afterwards you realize you probably had the strength, but right when you're in the middle of it everything seems impossible. Great job!!
    3418 days ago
    Love this blog! I definitely know how hard it can be to run in hot, humid weather. I wasn't a runner when we lived in the midwest, but summers here in VA get pretty nasty. We'll be switching some of our runs over to morning runs soon, but keeping at least one early evening one, just to power through it.

    Way to go on finishing your run! You're incredible!
    3418 days ago
    You're amazing! I would have walked home, lol. And you've inspired me to quit putting off my ST today and just do it. Because I can. And my goals are worth it. You totally rock, lady!
    3418 days ago
    You always inspire me. You have become a runner and one that I admire. You can do this, you are doing this, and you will continue to do this. Even when you want to stop.....you will find that shred of hope and inspiration to continue.

    Thanks for sharing today.
    3418 days ago
    This is a really inspiring post, thanks for sharing!!! emoticon
    3418 days ago
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