pitty party here i come

today is all wrong. no matter what i say to tim. its all wrong. i can say its a nice pretty day. he;ll say its hailing.i can ask would you like food. he;ll say no you might put something in it. witch is way wrong.
when he gets this way all he wants is a devorce.i guess when you here it anough. its starting to sound like a good idea..
what pisses me off is. a few weeks ago i had over 10;000 dollar in hand. when i had that money he wanted to be my best friend. now that he;s gone thru it. i;m a no good B-TCH.
thats my life. when i have something they need or want. i;m the best. now that i;m busted . its time to throw me away.

only good thing is . i do have another law suit worth 50;000. this time i;m going to buy me a place. so no man can tell me to leave again.funny thing about this is. this is my 2nd home in a short time..he can keep it. i;m going back to california where people there loves me just for me.

i just wish i could stop .but again my is broken. just a couple of weeks ago he wanted us to renew our ,but now i don;t know. hell i;m his 4th wife. and i;m still waiting for my wedding ring,
i just wish he;d check himself back in to mental health. becauase he;s blaming me for him cracking up. but again going by tim its all my fault he;s the way he; is.

i do know one thing i will not stay in a relationship where i;m not wanted.

sorry this is so long. but like i said earlier. i;m dealing with s broken and i can;t stop

just got more bad news my coucin has stage 4 cancer in the throat . noy giving him much time to live. whats even worce his wife has cerval cancer. when is this going to stop. i don;t need any more bad news

i guess i feel love is just a myth. i here i love you. but again in the same breath i here your no good. so what is it. am i bad person. or am i a stepping stone. i want to be loved just for me the way i am. i;m not perfect i have faults. why can;t i be loved for faults and all