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Ice Cream Epiphany

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

As i've mentioned before i struggle a lot with food. Not in the traditional sense but in that i severely limit my intake. 700-900 calorie days were my life for the past 2 years and i never lost any of the weight.

Last night i was staring at my nutrition tracker it was hovering around 1200 and I fealt like i couldnt eat anything more, emotionally this change to more calories a day is so counter-intuitve for me that i was crying because i could understand how eating more was going to help. I went downstairs and was rummaging through our freezer when I found the container of vanilla Ice cream. I stopped for a minute looked at it and pulled it out one 1/2cup serving has 150 calories. Wait i needed to eat a minimum of 100 more calories.

I went up to the kitchen and as I was scooping the ice cream it hit me, i could eat ice cream. everytime i've had ice cream or any type of desert in the last year i've hated myself after, for failing or being weak. But it was 150 calories that I could eat/ needed to eat. It was strange it was kind of like a light bulb went on in my head. I can eat more than i've been letting myself, i don't have to cut certain things out just cause i always thought they were inherently bad.

I'm not saying that eating only ice cream is okay, or having ice cream every day is a good idea but I am saying for me letting myself go there and enjoy it was changing. Yes you need to have a balanced diet and eat things that are healthy and giving you the energy your body needs, but sometimes for me it's in a place that i didnt think i could get it.
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  • PAMNANGEL
    Isn't it wonderful when that light goes emoticon ? I've just recently had a similar experience with Skinny Cow. Seen them in the freezer, but never tried them. Well, a couple days ago I had calories to spare and felt like a treat. Got myself a Cookies & Cream Truffle ice cream bar. Yum! Only 110 calories. Tonight I tried a Chocolate Fudge Brownie ice cream cup at 150 calories. I discovered the inner Cow in me. Moo!
    3474 days ago
  • NEWKAREN43
    Yep, day 2 and you're getting it. No matter how counter-intuitive it is, eat the calories on your tracker...SP won't let you down. Trust, as hard as it is, trust. I spent time, several months exercising and eating 'my way', before I finally trusted the trackers and ate the calories that SP said. And then the weight came off...I'm still on this journey, I have at least 30# more to lose but I trust SP and the trackers to steer me in the right direction, you can too. Blessings on your journey, Karen
    3474 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10270913
    Hi. It is amazing how we start to live when we get out of bondage of being good or bad. Life is meant to be LIVED and of course, in moderation. I've done the same things as you. The realization that you had "that this is okay to eat "shows a big step in your emotional healing with food. Yea for you!!!!Take it one step at a time and enjoy life. You know that you will face these trials again, but you can do it. I' m so proud of you. I really understand your experience. You go girl!!!
    Barb
    3474 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/31/2011 9:49:08 PM
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