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Emotional Rollercoaster

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

Thanks to everyone for their prayers and not even knowing what they were for. It's been a very emotional week, with a lot of emotional eating. I've had several great things happen, and a couple that I'm still dealing with the fallout.
Let's start with the good things. My son graduated from high school last Saturday. I'm so proud of him for all that he has achieved, and yet, I'm saddened by the end of his childhood. He's no longer my little boy. Factor in the fact that he will be leaving for the military in August, and I'm almost a basket case.
Second good thing: I completed my second tri last Sunday, even having a touch of a stomach bug (which the little one threw up in the car 4 times the day before). It was a reverse tri so we had to run a 5k first. After the first half mile, I no longer had the stomach cramps and fear that I would have an accident while running. In the end, I had a great ending time, and I even had more fun just hanging out with my team mates by the pool, which leads me to the sad thing. I was almost in tears (yes, alcohol was involved) because this was going to be my last tri as a member of Team Physiofit.
I found out last Wednesday that my position is being eliminated effective June 30th. I was one of many. This was a major blow. It came out of no where. Not only did I feel like a failure to my family and to myself, I didn't know how we were going to manage financially. I think the hardest part was knowing that I was going to have to give up the group that I have compeletly submersed myself in. I had finally found a place where I belonged after living here for four years... and I was going to be lost again.
To say that I have the best husband in the world may be open to argument for some, but to me, he is the awesome-est! He assured me that we would find a way to pay for the team so that I could continue training with this wonderful group of women that I have come to think of as friends.
Now, I just need to figure out what I want to be when I grow up, and find a job! The opportunities are out there. Trying to see which direction God has me pointed in.
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    Emotional Rollercoaster, indeed! You've got a lot going on my dear! Deep breath now...

    First of all, CONGRATS on the graduation of your son...I know it's bittersweet 'cause he's leaving shortly. May he be kept safe from harm as he goes off to serve our country. And I'm so deeply sorry about the loss of your position, & it's quite understandable that you'd be so upset. Things always have a way of working themselves out tho...& I know that in this instance, it will too! You just don't know what's around that corner! No doubt you'll be busy here these next few weeks & time will slip by quickly. Please take special care...& be kind to yourself.

    And your hubby sounds absolutely wonderful! HUGS HUGS HUGS to him! You're one lucky lady!

    And don't forget....we're here if you need us! Hugs & Love to you!

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    Whew! What a ride! I can relate to the son graduating from high school! Way to go for him and you! Then off to the military. Great thing to do, but for a mom, I can't imagine the mixed feelings. My prayers are and will be with you. As for your position being cut, there are no great smiley words to say, but I keep thinking that this woman (you) has completed 2 (not 1, but 2) tri-athlons, so bouncing back and finding a new job should be a piece of cake. Okay, maybe that is a little overstepping, but I hope you get my drift. You are so health now physically, that you can deal with this new challenge I know it! Let's hope that, quicker rather than later, that with the closing of that one door, another will open! Prayers for you and congrats on that amazing husband!
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    Wow, that is a HARD week. I'm so sorry that you have gone through so much. Thank you for sharing, and I want you to know my prayers are with you. Also, I'm going through the same thing as you for the army - except with my brother. The little bugger is in basic training right now, and I haven't been able to speak with him for over 6 weeks... and I miss him so much.

    But day by day I hold on, and know that things will eventually get better. Thank you to your son for his commitment... and thank you to you for sharing, and YOUR commitment here.
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