Emotional Rollercoaster
Wednesday, June 08, 2011
Thanks to everyone for their prayers and not even knowing what they were for. It's been a very emotional week, with a lot of emotional eating. I've had several great things happen, and a couple that I'm still dealing with the fallout.
Let's start with the good things. My son graduated from high school last Saturday. I'm so proud of him for all that he has achieved, and yet, I'm saddened by the end of his childhood. He's no longer my little boy. Factor in the fact that he will be leaving for the military in August, and I'm almost a basket case.
Second good thing: I completed my second tri last Sunday, even having a touch of a stomach bug (which the little one threw up in the car 4 times the day before). It was a reverse tri so we had to run a 5k first. After the first half mile, I no longer had the stomach cramps and fear that I would have an accident while running. In the end, I had a great ending time, and I even had more fun just hanging out with my team mates by the pool, which leads me to the sad thing. I was almost in tears (yes, alcohol was involved) because this was going to be my last tri as a member of Team Physiofit.
I found out last Wednesday that my position is being eliminated effective June 30th. I was one of many. This was a major blow. It came out of no where. Not only did I feel like a failure to my family and to myself, I didn't know how we were going to manage financially. I think the hardest part was knowing that I was going to have to give up the group that I have compeletly submersed myself in. I had finally found a place where I belonged after living here for four years... and I was going to be lost again.
To say that I have the best husband in the world may be open to argument for some, but to me, he is the awesome-est! He assured me that we would find a way to pay for the team so that I could continue training with this wonderful group of women that I have come to think of as friends.
Now, I just need to figure out what I want to be when I grow up, and find a job! The opportunities are out there. Trying to see which direction God has me pointed in.