Switching it Up and other musings
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
So the last week has been pretty rough just for me emotionally. I couldn't find my motivation to keep going. So on Monday i went in to see my counselor at the place where i did therapy for eating disorder. I hate goingin there cause it always seems like failure that i haven't gotten over my issues yet,
I sat down on the comfy black couch and just started voicing everything that was going through my head. My issues with feeling like i have to be a perfectionist in everything else (including tracker and exercise) since i'm not perfect in my weight. We talked about a lot of things and then she reminded me of something that I had forgotten about. I'm Worth it. I don't need to feel like with all of the issues that brought me to have weight issues in the first place ( abusive relationships, rape ,etc) don't mean that i don't deserve to be healthy. She said the problem isn't your motivation it's your self image and not thinking your good enough.
This is why I see her :-)
So as much as i love running and I do this week i decided to switch things up a bit. I did a walk at home video yesterday ( my hips were not liking the elliptical for some odd reason) Today I did a Power Yoga (Dallas Cowboys) (it's an off day today but i wanted to do something) , tomorrow I have personal training with my cousin at 1pm so i'll see what craziness she has in store for me. I'll go for a run on Thursday and Friday and try circuit training on Saturday.
Don't get me wrong my old routine was working but i needed a little variety and to try something new. Maybe one of these days I'll get the courage to actually run around the lake behind my house but until them gotta do something.
Oh food, yeah i struggled last weak with 3 nights of late night fridge raids to meet the calorie min for the day. Like today it's 8:21 and i have 600 calories left to meet the minimum and I had pizza for dinner. I guess that's something we all struggle with though how to make food work for us.
P.S. I get my hair done next week!