I can feel myself slipping....
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Many people don't know this, but I suffer from severe depression. Pair this with my current job hunting and you have a recipe for disaster.
Throughout all of this stress, the one thing I have been able to control is how well I eat and how hard I workout.
The problem? I've hit a mini-plateau.
I can feel myself slipping into that all or nothing mentality. I read for hours about working out and fitness. I workout for 2 hours a day (bless summer vacation!). I don't eat after 5.
And it isn't working right now.
This feels terrible. I feel like I don't have control over the ONE area I've been able to control. My husband thinks I am pushing too hard, but I'm on summer break, so it would seem like a waste.
Nevertheless, I am taking off my morning shred to see if the scales starts moving again.
I hate that I am so tied to the numbers, but I am. I knew when I got really into this fitness lifestyle that if I got too depressed this would happen. Now, I just have to fight it off and be reasonable.