A thing learned, or remembered
Saturday, July 09, 2011
Simply writing it the other day, saying one more time with feeling, "FOOD IS MY DRUG OF CHOICE" made me more aware as I went thru the week. It was not a total fix but it was a heck of a lot better than some of the previous days and weeks had been.
As some of the normal stress and screw ups occurred, I thought about what I was doing. I worked at staying in the moment. I did pretty good. Well, except for yesterday when I decided a snickers was a better meal that a salad.
I have to find ways to say to myself it is ok. No, I have to learn to say I am OK without a bag of pretzels or a half gallon of my favorite ice cream. I have to stay present. Like any addict with food present, I cannot sit with a bag of chips open. I will nibble away one bite at a time until the bag is empty.
Some of the things that are going on in my head are things I thought I head dealt with an others are things that are new at this time. I may write about some of them here. I may not but the gist of what is going on will probably find my way to this blog once or twice a week.
I have every intention of winning this battle. The war will last a lifetime I think for me. There will not be a truce with food. I have to stay present every day.