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Soul favorite sport...

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

This morning, I joined with my good friend Suzanne to "get moving" together.
Suzanne is a elementary school teacher I meet in a qigong group when I was living in St-Bruno. She's creative, and lively and we share many values and challenges (including delicate mother and sisters relationship).

At first, we planed a long bike ride for today, but since the humidity was too high, I proposed that we walk into the Mount-Bruno Park, where I just loved to go when I use to live nearby. So we took the 8.8 Km trail that follow the Seignior's Lake and goes up and down around the mountain, under big trees. Suzanne is in a pretty good shape, and walks a little faster than I, so I did workout a very good sweat, coping with her pace and talking about my emotions as well.

See, walking really is my soul's favorite sport.

You can't talk long about the weather or last night TV show when you're walking. Pretty soon, you'll be talking about things that really matters to you - things your soul needs you to express, or to hear you say.

So there we were, walking and talking about our ups and downs, our families, our relationship with others... sometimes, I had to slow down a little, emotions emerging and taking my breath away; sometimes, I had to slow down cause the hill was longer than my breath!
Since I left St-Bruno last January, I found myself to be pretty lonely but acting courageously, like a good little soldier, doing what she has being told to do. Today, as I was going on and on about my situation, my lost, my disappointments, I came to realize how important having someone to talk to "from heart-to-heart" is to me (and to you too, I'm convinced).
Generally speaking, I'm a bright woman. I'm also conscious of my behaviour and of their consequences. I'm angry with myself for gaining back in six month those pounds I had lost since I joined SP in August 2010. I hate the "victim game" I played in those last months events. Most of all, I'm sad for burying all those negative feelings under "comfort food". Last spring, I started to transform that anger into a determination that would make me jump out of the bed and walk every morning, and try Zumba, and go back to Pilates class, and play Kinect when nothing else would be available. Those are flames of fire burning inside of me - fire of anger towards me I want to put off with gaining back some self control, over food and over physical inactivity. I still am mad with myself for having great weight lost expectations - that are bound to disappoint me.

Sorry, this is turning into a confession.

Basically, I just wanted to share the pleasure and the gratitude I had for Suzanne, and the fine time we shared this morning. I guess my soul still needed to talk some more... so thanks to you for walking with me - virtually.

You are precious to me. emoticon

PS : I choose to postpone Zumba class to next fall in order to keep on seeing Suzanne once a week and still join the Pilates group!
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    emoticon for the both of you! You are blessed my friend! I'm so glad you have this precious time to spend w/a friend...walking & talking & sharing! How fun! You are a SPECIAL lady...& deserving of all that is wonderful & good in this world! EnJOY every moment in doing whatever it is that sets your soul free...& that makes you feel GOOD!

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    3564 days ago
    Thanks for sharing this my dear friend! I'm going to share something with you that I picked up in a private session this morning with my therapist and it is sooo you right now!...it reads:

    "Stay in the present! Yesterday is a canceled check. Tomorrow is a promissory note. Today is ready cash, spend is wisely. Enjoy life where you are right now". "Whenever I forgot and started to dwell on the past, I was dragged down into a numbing state of depression. What helped me was having a meditation time while I walked in the morning and a prayer time when I took my personal inventory before retiring for the night. As I struggled through a succession of difficult choices day by day, I was chasing the little monsters out of my life." The article then goes into positive affirmations such as I am building a perfectly functioning body, I am giving my subconscious mind a new blueprint for my life.

    Confess away my friend....sometimes you just need to get it out in black and white and get some outside perspective like you so graciously and lovingly gave to me.

    You are a wonderful woman, with so much to offer the world. I do believe walking is your therapy in order to heal and care for your soul. There is nothing you can do to change that the weight you lost is back. What is so wonderful is the control and power YOU TOOK BACK in order to change your life and live it the way YOU WANT TO, and for that, I am so proud of you my sparkling, dear dear friend!!

    EnJOY your life, it's a beautiful one and continue on your journey one beautiful, flowering, growing step at a time. Progress is a beautiful thing isn't it?? emoticon
    3564 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/12/2011 3:01:36 PM
    I like walking too~
    3564 days ago
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