Puddles of Trouble ...
Monday, August 22, 2011
Wow! When trouble finds your address, it just keeps coming back again and again and again. Somehow, somewhere, someone let the cat out of the bag about where I live, and what my most vulnerable issues might be. Trouble moved right in - lock, stock, and barrel. My water heater had a major "come apart" (with no insurance coverage for such a thing), my blood pressure has gone through the roof, money problems are beating the door down, and it is as hot as "H- E- double toothpicks" to just name a few of the messes that are plaguing me this week. Of course, there are more - but they must remain 'unnamed' for security reasons.
So what does this all mean? Well, in my world , it means that there are things in my life (and probably yours, as well) that are going to pop up unexpectedly from time to time, and because I haven't learned 'self-mastery' with my eating, exercising, and general health habits - then I'm going to have to pay a pretty hefty price to just keep my head above water (sometimes literally!).
While I was tearing out carpet, throwing boxes and boxes of soaked valuables in the dumpster, crying over boxes and boxes of treasured memorabilia and watching my blood pressure surge, I thought "geez - why me?" And of course the only answer to the "why me" question is, "why not?"
What makes me so special that I think I shouldn't fall into a puddle of trouble every now and then? My point is: I am special, but haven't treated myself very special. When food becomes the solace to my troubles, then I'm in worse trouble than the original trouble would have been.
So how about this: Since I have to start all over with fixing my house, how about if I start all over with fixing myself as well? How about if I stop pushing myself beyond the point of reasonableness? How about if I stop whining about things and "just do it!" How about if I learn to say no to those high-carb comfort foods, and sweets that I reach for in times of stress? How about if I stop being unnerved by others' decision that I can't do anything about? How about if I learn to respect my good values and stop worrying about my 'not-so-good' ones?
How about if I build a bridge across the puddles of trouble, rather than rolling around in the muck? I think I'll start now by saying to myself: "You go, girl"!!