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Wednesday, August 31, 2011

In the past two years, I have been soooooo abundantly blessed. The right student trainers came into my life at just the right time to prepare me for a challenge or opportunity. Any obstacles or hurdles I encountered help to prepare me for the opportunities that would be coming next. Such was the case today.

A month ago I gave notice at my job. For the past year I have tried holding a full time job, training for various physical events (half marathons, full marathons, duathlon, etc.) and been studying health, fitness and wellness related courses. I felt that God was preparing me for something, but I was not sure what. My notice to my boss simply said 'opportunity'. People have been asking me to be more specific . . . I cannot because that has not been revealed to me, fully.

In the weeks following my 'resignation' I started feeling a sense of anxiety when I should be feeling peace. The more people who questions 'what I would be doing', the more I doubted that I had made a wise choice and the more I felt the need to MAKE a decision and DO something. I started wanting to grasp onto and reach out for more opportunities. I felt like I had a death grip on FabFit and a need to 'control' the direction of things on the business side of it. I just about drove my family and friends crazy and was starting to exhaust myself. Then, I stepped back onto the mat and in that still quiet breath, I reconnected with the core of who I am, what I love and what I was designed for. I could feel my fingers being pried off the bar as I released 'control' and opened my hands to surrender.

Today I sat at my desk, for the last time that it is my desk, emptying the drawers. It was a very melancholy moment. With each picture I took off the wall and each personal item I placed in the box, I was removing the 'me-ness' from office and it was becoming just an office, just four walls and it felt cold. Then I found the obituary of my boss, Dan. He died just five months after hiring me. Right after I started working there, I had a health scare. My blood pressure was super high and there were concerns that I had had a heart attack or stroke even. Dan sat me down and gave me a 'fatherly' talk about knowing my heart health risks and being proactive about my health. I made a few changes in the coming months, but only lost 12 lbs. in three months. Then Dan died of a catastrophic heart attack.

Holding his obit in my hand today it struck me, that had Dan not hired me, I wouldn't be sitting here today. Had Dan not died in such a traumatic way, I may not have taken my health risks seriously. Had God not placed me in that place at that time, there may not have been a today for me. God is good.

I still do not know what I will be doing or how God may use me. But this I do know, my hand is open, my heart is full and I serve a great BIG God.

Be Brave.Be Bold.Be Fierce.Be Fabulous!
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  • KELLIGIRL523
    Profound. God IS Good, indeed.

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    3306 days ago
  • KAITLYNSNAMMY
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    3310 days ago
  • LAURIETAIT
    I hope your perfect opportunity will be revealed to you soon. Until then enjoy the journey.
    3310 days ago
  • DISPATCHER04
    God IS good. All the time. :)

    Thank you for testifying. I think I needed to read this today. emoticon

    My Momma tells me, "Always trust the Heart of God when you can't see the Hand of God."

    No word of a lie.
    3311 days ago
  • NEWME0519
    Now that is a testimony! That's a great motivational story to share with others as you embark on your new journey!
    3311 days ago
  • TWALKER0475
    It can be scary to go with your gut, especially when others seem to be skeptical...but sometimes you have to take risks to move forward in life. You know you are on the right path, and I'm so glad you reconnected with that knowledge!
    3311 days ago
  • ABETTERBECKY
    wow--thanks for sharing--what a blessing he was for you
    3311 days ago
  • MUSTANG_SALLY2
    What an exciting time in your life! I get fascinated when I look over my life and see those moments when God directed my path. While I can see that this could be a bit nerve wracking, I'm hoping that you will see your path clearly and that it will bring you boundless joy.

    I'm so excited for you! Keep us posted on how things play out.

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    3311 days ago
  • LASHERTHECAT
    God has his hand in everything whether we see it or not, whether we can acknowledge it or not. He's your Father... You are the apple of his eye and he has good things planned for you!
    3311 days ago
  • HEALTHYARTIST1
    I too felt something was out there for me but I did not know what. I was going to go back to school and study nutrition, health and fitness and maybe to seminary and then it hit me - I do not need to do all of those things as I am surrounded by experts in all fields, I just need to help them get their words out. So, since I had been a volunteer retreat coordinator for six years I have decided to start my own retreat business for the experts. Two weeks ago I had a retreat up at Lake Tahoe for 48 attendees with a great speaker and here is the take home from that:

    You are not truly living if you do not take the time each day to: pause, ponder, puzzle, and pray. Most go rushing from one thing to another, don't, live to the fullest and each day pause, ponder, puzzle, and pray about your day. emoticon
    3312 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/31/2011 11:30:12 PM
  • ITSHOWYOULIVE
    Wow! What a powerful realization. Whatever is next is going to be wonderful...especially since you are so open to the possibilities! Good luck and can't wait to hear what He has planned for you.
    3312 days ago
  • PINKNFITCARLA
    How so very true. Love ya and thanks for being you :-)
    3312 days ago
  • KAMAPERRY
    God totally had His hand on you!! How awesome!! You are doing exactly what you are meant to do!
    3312 days ago
  • DONNA0256
    Deep down you know you're on the right track. Satan tries to come and create confusion and doubt, but he will not have the victory! Yes, God does have a plan and it will unfold. Just embrace it.

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    3312 days ago
  • FIT-WARRIOR
    The hardest part of walking through the doors God is opening is not always knowing where they will lead, but He has a plan for you and it is a good plan. Jer. 29:11 is a life verse to me and iin it God says "For I know the plans I have you! Plans to prosper you, plans for your good!..." What is to come is awesome and yes it is a faith walk, but grab His hand and run to what He has for you! Your time is now!!!
    3312 days ago
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