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It Feels Like Chaos

Sunday, September 04, 2011

In the song by Sanctus Real, "Whatever You're Doing" it says:

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly
Something heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time breathe in and let everything out

Well, here I am. Just 15 more hours of my 'gainful employment'. Getting ready to enter the ministry that I feel called . . . that I have felt called to for over a year now. I have been sitting on pause and prepare for a year now. At times it felt like the time was creeping and at other times it has moved overwhelming faster than I could keep up with.

What exactly will I be doing? I do not know. God hasn't given me the full picture. I just know He has been preparing me for something bigger than me. This journey started with an epiphany of who God created me to be. That moment, a series of three events, in March, April and May of 2009 . . . transformed my life forever and I am all the better for it.

On Thursday night, I was so blessed to go to the Faith in Motion Dance Studio. I could so feel the presence of God and the feeling of purpose that God has been preparing me for. The studio was launching a twelve week challenge called Leap of Faith. Do not even think that this is coincidence. I have had the name and number of the studio owner for over nine months. It was never the right timing. I was taking classes, working full time, traveling, studying, training for a marathon, preparing for a graduation and a wedding, etc.

I finally made the Leap of Faith, to call on Monday. We connected on Thursday at lunch time and Thursday night was the launch of the 12 week program. Maybe I just see everything through a divine God filter . . .but I do not think this is coincidence. As I packed my gym bag to head to the studio after work, for some reason I grabbed the stack of before/after pictures I had printed for some presentations I will be giving. I am so glad I did.

When I got to the studio, they welcomed me just like family. It felt like a mix of dance studio and gospel choir. I was directed to where RaChelle, the owner was. Immediately I felt like I had known her my whole life! We clicked, right away. Who wouldn't click with this woman. She has a great big God presence about her and she loves the ladies she works with and a passion for what she is doing. Then she tells me that she wants me to share a little bit of my story to inspire and motivate the women who are starting the 12 week challenge . . . ahhhhhhh . . .this is what God has been preparing me for! This is why I have the photos, this is why I have been gifted with the 'no fear of speaking in crowds'. I can do this! Piece of cake!

I did not jump into the hour long Zumba class, I wanted to look a little fresher than a wrung out rag when I shared my story. It was hard to stay seated when the music started and the energy got pumping. I clapped along, swayed and enjoyed the music. This is the kind of group you would love to dance with, worship with and celebrate with. They know how to make a little noise and it is contagious!

After the first hour it is time for me to share briefly a word or two of encouragement with the group:

The ladies were so sweet in their words of encouragement and support to me! I was there to encourage them, but I received so much from them.

After I shared, I was then ready to join in on the last half hour of the party!

It was an amazing evening. At the end, I stood at the door 'de-greeting', hugging and encouraging the women as they left. There was lots of high fives and 'you got this girl'.

Today, I was blessed to receive confirmation that I have been asked to join the staff at Faith in Motion Christian Dance Studio as a yoga instructor. I am excited to be back on the mat as an instructor. More important, I am blessed to be connected with this ministry of faith and fitness as I continue to grow the ministry of FabFit in my local community. This is a partnership that I think will be blessing to so many as we endeavor to help support women in making whole healthy choices, to build whole healthy families and ignite whole healthy communities. I see it. I feel it. It is growing and the vision is bigger than me.

I am humbled, honored and blessed.
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