just need to share this:
Saturday, September 10, 2011
I have schizophrenia. Don't know if I've admitted that yet on this site. SZ is not having multiple personalities...just want to make that clear. People with SZ suffer from hallucinations and delusions...as well as many many other horrible symptoms. It is a brain disease. NOT something that you can "shake off" or make go away in therapy. It is a disease as real and as sad as cancer.
Just had to say that before I go ahead with my story. the worst part about having schizophrenia, (well MAYBE the worst part) is that people treat you like you are the plague...as though all that's happened to you is your fault. And it is in no way the fault of the victim. They are ILL....physically ill. And will never ever recover. Although it is possible to learn to function to your best ability. And so I am a "recovering schizophrenic." No, it will never go away...and Yes, there will likely be periods of psychosis in my future and probably more hospitalizations. But I am maintaining myself as well as I am able right now.
Tonight I was on a forum for people with SZ and I had spoken of how discouraged I've been with the physical issues.... and of my thoughts not to continue with the surgeries. And one of the men there made this comment at the end of his remark to me...I thought it was one of the most beautiful things ever said to me:
"hope you will keep taking care of your self because you have proved to us and your self that better days are possible,even when we thought that they weren`t."
And a better expression of hope I have never heard before. and it is a challenge put out there for me to live up to. but I will try.