The Day Before

Okay, so today is the day before I start my diet and exercise. I wanted to see how many calories I ate without tracking them so, that I can see my progress. I am about to go take pictures of myself so I can compare the before and afters as well. I am also about to take my measurements. I am excited and dreading tomorrow. I know that the journey to losing the weight will be a hard and long one. I am going to find a determination in myself that I have never be able to access before. I have always given up on myself and the goal that I have been working on. Always thinking the weight will come off on it's own. That's probably been one of my mistakes. Although gaining the weight wasn't all my fault, I didn't help it either. As by not all my fault I mean, I got on the birthcontrol shot (the depo shot) and gained 50 pounds in 2 months. My eating habits didn't change and I was very active playing tennis. I was actually starting to lost weight. I weighed about 160 when I got the shot and shot up to 210 in 2 months. But, I helped with that extra 58 pounds. And now here I am trying to get to a weight that I can never remember being. Hopefully, this time I'll be able to be successful.