Weight Maintenance Issues and Bingeing

Maintaining my goal weight is by far one of my biggest current weight related issues. It is far more difficult than losing the weight in the first place. I know how to restrict my diet and I know how to binge. What I can't seem to figure out is how to maintain a standard caloric intake that neither restricts nor results in a binge, or a combination of the two. Whenever I try to give myself a little leaway from the restricted caloric intake for weight loss, I lose it completely and go on a binge. If I'm not binging, then I keep losing because I don't know how to take a little without taking a lot. I'm getting really sick of it. I hate feeling ill because I've lost it in the evening after days or hours of being good. It's so frustrating. I am my own worst enemy! For example, I know that I don't want to lose any more weight, so tonight I allowed myself a small portion of seconds at dinner and a muffin for dessert. But after that it all went downhill! I had an apple, yogurt, peanut butter, a handful of dried dates, some raisins, and probably some other things as well that I just don't remember right now. What is wrong with me?! *Pout* Ah well, fall down twice get up three times. Although I'm pretty sure this is fall down a bazillion times and get up a bazillion and one...