At the peak.....
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
OK, OK, I know I haven't written for awhile. I really should blog more--it keeps my head a little straighter! I can hardly believe it is Thanksgiving already. The years do fly by and sometimes that gives me a panic attack! LOL
If life is peaks and valleys, I am definitely out of the valley and on a peak. Wish I could figure out how to stay here! My exercise is more consistent and I rarely even hesitate to start. I've been walking a little over a mile 4 mornings a week; strength training (sort of!!)
2 days a week and rest one day. I've even been fighting a cold the last couple of days and still exercised. WOW!! That's amazing for me! This has just given me so much more energy which means I'm getting more things done in a day which improves my mood. It's a cycle!! Of course, when my mood is improved everyone around me is happier---again a boost to my mood!!
All of this has made me very aware of how blessed I am. My son has a job he loves (teaching special ed) and has a girlfriend he adores. He is probably the happiest I've seen him since high school. (He's 30!) My daughter and her family are moving to VA (30 minutes from us!!) Her husband is excited about his new position and they are all happy and healthy. My husband is amazing!! We will be married 40 years in January and I love him just as much today as I did all those years ago. He does everything in his power to make me happy and supports me in everything I do!! I am so blessed!
My father is not doing well but he maintains his sense of humor and positive outlook. He is a wonderful man. I love him so much and it is hard to accept he is in a nursing home and in pain every day. I pray for him every day and for me that I can accept what's in store. (Don't have a choice now, do I?)
My mom passed away 4 years ago December 23rd. We did not have a very good relationship and I've held bitterness and animosity in my heart for many years. I never measured up; I was never good enough. Since I've been working on me, I've gone to some counseling and have done much praying about this. Amazing thing: I released the anger and resentment! I have felt so "light" since then. I cried for my mom's death for the first time and I think of her every day now. Maybe she wasn't the mom I needed but I understand she was the best she could be. She had a rough childhood and carried a lot of her own pain. She died a very bitter woman with no friends left. How sad is that?? I love my mom and wish I could tell her again and give her a hug!
Geez, I don't know how I ended up on that road!! Sorry! I'm looking forward to a quiet day with hubby. Son is at girlfriend's parents and daughter is preparing to move. I'm OK with that! I'm working on accepting me and the life changes I'm facing.
And you, my Sparkfriends, hold me up when I'm in the valley and give me the boost to the peak. Thank you! I hope you all have a blessed Thanksgiving!!