Thursday, December 01, 2011
I'd just written a whole blog entry: an because my internet connection faltered at a crucial moment; the whole thing was lost.
But I do want to update you--on the fact that I've suddenly seen my body for the size it really is: EXtRA- HUGE. And I am not going to stay this weight. I know that this is a bad time to begin to try to lose weight: the beginning of my historical "sick season"--especially in the weakened , out of shape way that I've allowed myself to become.
But really, IS there any bad time to make a commitment to health?
What are the challenges I am facing (other than the "normal" ones-any fat, out of shape person faces)?
1- illness and pain have made it almost impossible to exericise.
2- I'm back in my routine of needing steroids almost every other week for my out-of-control asthma. And as anyone whose ever been on steroids knows; it is nigh impossible to lose weight --or even not to gain weight-- while on these monsterous drugs.
3- my respiratory status has once more deteriorated to a very bad state, making even the THOUGHT of exercise terrifying.
4- Illness and fatigue have made it really really difficult to cook balanced meals. It has become much easier to eat something quick (and generally unhealthy) rather than a good meal.
BUT--have I overcome these things before?
Yes. I have.
Granted the illness is a bit different now--but I can at least try to move a bit...I can at least use these new hips to use the ergometer....I can at least lift some light weights or use the resistance bands... I can at least do range of motion exercises....and I certainly can eat LESS and make healthier choices.
Just because I have an illness doesn't mean I have carte blanche to eat anything I want and it doesn't mean I have to roll over and quit trying.