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The fire is so delightful ...

Wednesday, December 07, 2011

Oh, the weather outside REALLY is frightful - we expect a high temp today of 6 degrees above zero. That isn't very warm, but the upside is that I'm sitting by the fireplace - with no pressing errands that need doing, I have plenty of wood (thanks to my big, strong, caring sons who take good care of their mom), I've got some vegetables roasting in the oven, and chicken in the crock pot. The Christmas music is in the background, and I'm enjoying being ME.

The weather is a temporary inconvenience, however the fire, the roasting veggies/chicken, and/or the Christmas music are reminders of my many blessings in life - but the true gift that really surprises me today is that I'm happy with me. My life isn't where I want it to be; my weight isn't where I want it to be; my sense of self isn't where I want it to be. Deep down I feel that nagging, restless, critical self-talk that often sabotages me is still there ... waiting for me to give it an opportunity to jump out and over-shadow this unusual feeling of contentment that I'm basking in.

I know, only too well, what that self-talk wants to say: 1) You really are being kind of lazy today; 2) You really should be doing something productive today; 3) Hey - we (inner voice and me) could bake (and then eat!!) some cookies today; 4) It is just too hard to cut out sweets; 5) You deserve a treat now and then; 6) Look how long you've been at this dieting thing - aren't you tired of it? 7) Look at your weight - you are never going to meet your goal, so why try! 8) Just this once - it won't matter at all; 8) C'mon let's bake cookies... and on and on.

But today I'm determined to remain in control of me. Who knows whether I can maintain this feeling of peace and contentment all day, but I'm going to try!! There are plenty of symbolic reminders today that I'll rely on to help me: 1) The weather reminds me that this is temporary - it will either get better or worse, but it won't stay the same. 2) The fire reminds me of life ... the (good) heat keeps coming out as long as I keep putting (good) wood in. 3) The music reminds me that I can change the station anytime I want to. 4) The vegs/chicken remind me that I do have lots of choices in life. These reminders are significant when juxtaposed against the trials and temptations that I'm faced with on my journey to a healthier/ thinner/more energetic/more content ME. 1) My present condition is temporary - it will either get better or worse, but it won't stay the same. 2) The things that I put into my mind and body will come back to me in kind; 3) Like the radio station, I can change lots of things when something isn't working out as it should. 4) The choice is mine - it doesn't belong to my inner voice, to my friends, to my family, to my neighbors, to my non-friends. The choice is mine alone.

And, just as the fire is so delightful, so is my life - if I choose it to be.
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    ..what more could you ask for? I feel the warmth of your lovely fire!
    3217 days ago
    Awesome blog. You inspire me.
    3217 days ago
  • MONTY68
    What a beautiful blog, What I see first, is your attitude on life. I feel it is very positive and I see you have taken responsibility as to how your life progresses.
    I also believe that at some point, you will reach your goal an d that you are already successful in what you do.
    Thank you for sharing as you sit by the fire, it brought back memories of many years ago when I lived up north and enjoyed a fire on a cold winters night.

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    3217 days ago
    Oh, my goodness...you are at a VERY exciting time of your life!! The weather gave you an opportunity to not only stay inside, but to also look inside. Glad you made the most of it! The weight/food thing is really just a distraction - I am believing that more and more, every day. Enjoy your journey and as much self-love as you can!! emoticon
    3217 days ago
    Sounds like an idyllic day - glad you enjoyed!
    3217 days ago
    Yes!!! I like the way you have taken advantage of the cold weather situation and given your self time to reflect. You can have that peace and contentment. emoticon emoticon Keep telling yourself those positive thoughts...it will transform your life!!!
    3217 days ago
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