Sassy FNF Week Two
Sunday, January 15, 2012
I am starting a week late so thought I would do week one and two back to back here to catch up!
What is my relationship with food?
Primarily I love to cook. It is my creative outlet. I am also sometimes an active relaxer so conceiving, creating and finishing a meal or doing some baking is really enjoyable for me.
Secondly (and probably the real issue) someone has to eat it. HAha. This definitely stems from childhood and the concept that wasting food is wrong.
I have also spent a LOT of time alone this past year (which I don't think I have ever really done before) which is both a blessing and a curse when it comes to my relationship with food. I am an emotional eater, not an obvious one but an insidious one. I eat more when my life is stressful or boring. I don't really binge, I creep. I eat an extra handful of cereal here or have an extra glass of wine there, some dressing won't really hurt, dessert while on holiday is ok, if everyone else is having an icecream... You get the picture.
The thing is - THIS ALL ADDS UP.
The real reason I am eating is because I feel insecure - stress is obviously going to make you feel insecure and I am realising that boredom also makes me insecure. "I have no life anyway so I may as well eat that "----" and get fatter". Self talk at its worst. I know this is supposed to be about my relationship with food but I feel a list which combats that statement is in order here.
- a mother
- a sister
- a daughter
- a friend
- an aunt
- a godmother
- a university graduate (with honours)
- a student
- a person with a healthy diet
- a person who strives to be a better person
- a lover
- a pet owner
I need to go think now, but not too much as I have planned in Week One not to over-analyse :)