Not Happy Today
Monday, February 06, 2012
Good news is lost on me. I feel as though I have something good and then it always seems to go away. I thought I had my student loans more covered than I did, I was wrong. I read a letter from them and it was the opposite of what I read after someone else read it to me. I feel cheated.
Also, I don't feel as though I've lost any weight. I know my pants are looser but I just don't see it. I didn't weigh myself when I started back on sparkpeople on the 1st of Jan, I just went with the weight I was when I weighed myself last, (summer). So the only way I'm able to tell that I'm loosing is because my pants are a bit loose. So to that, at work we are doing The Biggest Loser. I'm joining but the problem is, our manager won't go by the honor system, he wants us to go on a scale in front of him. The BIGGEST problem with this is, (if you're a woman to live by this unspoken rule), you always weigh yourself in the morning after you use the bathroom. With his plan, I have to, or I feel like I need to not eat so I can get a lower number on the scale. Wrong, I know! I am going to check my weight when I go to the gym on Wed, and hope for the best!!
I just kind of feel like I will never get ahead and I'm lost, or stuck. I want to workout today but I just can't, I'm too sad. Then in turn that makes me more sad because I didn't workout today. Ehhhh!!!!