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Friday, February 10, 2012

Hello Sparkers,

I have been away for far too long. All of the weight I had lost in the end of the year is now back. I have failed at meeting my goal for my 25th birthday. [unless I magically transform in a matter of 14 days? Not Likely.]

I'm not sure why my weight loss and life style change took such a drastic turn for the worse? Life did become a lot more hectic with Mom visiting and the holidays then my new semester of school beginning but that should not be an excuse when something is important to you.

I am unsure what my real weight is at the moment because I've just returned to a positively, healthy eating schedule this week. I will be sure to weigh in tomorrow morning so I am aware of where I am beginning from, again.

I will be 25 on the 23rd of this month and I am very excited for that but I am disappointed in myself for the lack of commitment I've had in changing my lifestyle and my health.

My husband will be home from Afghanistan some time next month and I know it will be even more challenging to lose weight then, he promises me to be a superstar support system and make the gym a regular habit in our daily lives. He has packed on all kinds of muscle and is looking drop dead gorgeous for his homecoming, unlike myself.

I don't want to be too down on myself because that is never a healthy way to live. I have many wonderful aspects in my life and about myself, my weight/health just is not one of them at the moment. School and work are going wonderfully and my little family will all be under one roof again soon. I am thankful for that.

To everyone out there, I hope your journeys are going well and that your health and weight have taken a turn for the better!

emoticonall over again.
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  • RLT5089
    That's okay girl. First of all if my husband was risking his life for me and my country every day in a foreign land, I don't even know if I'd be able to get out of bed in the morning. Soon the love of your life will be by your side, and trust me, you will be looking just as precious and beautiful to him as if you'd lost 10,000 pounds. You are strong and just as much of a WARRIOR as your husband and don't let anyone tell you different. And a warrior doesn't accept defeat, a warrior picks up their sword again... which is what you are doing now! Never quit!
    3180 days ago
  • MAMAFISH1
    It's a new day. Already sounds like you know and are doing what needs to be done. Don't beat yourself up anymore. For some reason we just can't be perfect...giving up completely is what will hurt us. Keep up the good work. emoticon
    3180 days ago
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