Not a good feeling
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Well today I had to go and get measured for my bridesmaid dress that I have to wear in my best friends wedding and after I left I had a complete meltdown.. I know it's just a number but my dress size was a 22. I felt embarrassed not that anyone but the girls who measured me saw but still they were all thin thin and here I'am a 22 ughh. I don't really understand it I wear a size 16 pants and some of my pants are a 14. I have lost 10 pounds so far and I know I need to be happy about that but seeing that number today totally just made me so sad, when I got in my car I couldn't stop crying. Thank god for my mom she was very supportive. I'm not going to let this keep me down. I will just work harder.. I hate that I have let myself get to this point. I really hope this time is the time I really do this..I really want this!!!