I am back, and willing to try this again.
Wednesday, March 07, 2012
Hello sp, it's been awhile. The last few mounths have been pretty crazy. My job is a major cause of stress. My father is very ill with cancer, and my arythmia condition has prevented me from meeting my ideal heart rate when working out, and I had to give up on the intense cardio. This in turn negatively affected my energy and motivation, which led to a relaps in poor eating habits. I began to feel that the world was out to get me, and prevent me from meeting my goals. I can sit here and tell you all my excuses, but the bottom line is I regressed and lost track of my goals. Now I am back, pretty much at square one again, and I am not proud of it.
One day I looked in the mirror and did not recognise myself. I said who is this chubby old woman? I seemed to have aged about 10 years in just 1. I finaly told myself I have to do something. So hear I am, again.
On the plus side, I now know that I am capable of making major progress, because I have done it before. I already know what I need to do to make positive changes. I am willing to put in the effort. I am willing to try again, and I know how much better I can feel and look, and this I hope will be my motivation.
To all of you out there who are making the effort, kudos to you! I know how difficult it is. It truly was one of the most difficult things I have ever done. It was harder for me then quiting smoking was. But the rewards are just as great, even better I'd say. When your energy and confidence levels start to soar beyond what you ever thought possible. Don't give up!