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Wednesday, March 07, 2012

I met with my trainer this morning for the first time since September of 2011. I had a hard winter. My dad grew ill and we found out he had liver cancer in November. He died in February. I spent the majority of the winter in the lazyboy, with a blanket and my youngest child. Each night, the comfort of rocking in the chair with him, kept me from getting my workouts in and caring about what I was going to eat or not eat. I lost (or thought I'd lost) most of my strength. My muscle turned to marshmallow and I just sat in the chair and watched it happen. I felt guilty for wanting to be healthy and take care of myself when my dad was dying.

Slowly after his death, my desire to regain what I have lost is coming back. Today, I found I have only gained 3 lbs since September. This was huge for me. I can lose 3 lbs in like 2 weeks! The bad part of this is, my body composition went through a pretty big change. My body fat % went up, and my muscle mass is down. This lead to gaining several inches and losing the ability to rock at pushups. In September, I maxed out at 42 perfect toe pushups. Today, I did 23. Still not zero, so I don't totally suck.

It is time to level up! I joined a 6 week challenge as I have been feeling like I need something to kickstart some motivation. I add to my list of challenges, journaling my thoughts each day. I will run a 5k very soon to get a base time to build on. I will run 5ks in May and July as training runs, as my plan is to kick ass at a September 10k, which is a cancer fundraiser. I hope to raise enough money to get my dad's name on the Memory Wall.
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    Sorry to hear about about your dad. I'm glad that you took time for comfort and healing. That will be ongoing I'm sure, but perhaps now you'll find it in taking care of yourself and getting back up to your prior level of fitness. Glad you're getting back on track. Good luck with your 5ks!
    3147 days ago
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