Uh-Oh Dessert For Breakfast is NEVER a Good Sign...
Saturday, March 10, 2012
I have been losing weight and faithfully getting good amounts of exercise in...
I have been eating well and not depriving myself of things...
I have been drinking HEAPS of water and getting enough sleep...
This, for me it appears, is a recipe for self-sabotage.
I got pretty sick (cold with flu-like symptoms) on Wednesday, today is Sunday. I'm still pretty achey (though that could be from the ST workout I did on Fri) and stuffed up and bed at 8.30pm has seemed like a pretty good idea since Thursday night.
I also used it as an excuse to overeat. WHHHHHYYYYYYYY......
I know you should eat what you want when you're sick blah blah blah, rest and drink liquids, blah blah blah - I know all the diatribes but I am also in a battle with myself here and I tell you I am losing right now. (I guess if I am battling myself it might be pretty hard to be the winner or the loser....hahha).
I managed to talk myself into those treats everyday (not extra, healthy options because I was hungry) using my sickness as an excuse. This is actually not ok. It is not healthy or helpful. I have steadily increased my calorie intake since Wednesday and decreased my exercise/output. I wailed about overeating last night to my SP peeps and then in an attempt to use up my sons leftover cereals, made a batch of peanut butter cereal bars and left them to cool when I went to bed.
You guys can guess where this is going right??
I got up to feed the cats this morning and ate peanut butter cereal bars for breakfast.
It didn't even taste that great (well actually it did but not what my tastebuds expect at 6am) but I felt like I had let myself down so I pulled a leftover bowl of broccoli out of the fridge and ate that too!!! HAhaha... Officially the weirdest breakfast EVER.
Then I tracked it - well found someone elses recipe on SP recipes and tracked that - AND the broccoli and found that except for the added fat, the calories weren't that different from my usual breakfast.
So now I am just confused and worn out and it is not even 9am!! I think I need to give myself a little slack, but really I have changed full circle since I began eating healthy and losing weight. I now need the routine, perhaps as obsessively as I craved chaos and disorder before I started on this journey.
Ok after a coffee things are not seeming so dire - I think I will just take one day at a time for now.
I am going to eat what I had planned for the rest of the day and go for a run later.
I am going to catch up on study I missed last week due to being sick and stay in bed with my tissues until I run.
I will watch movies with my son tonight.
I will not beat myself over the head with routine OR chaos - I will try to just be.
Easier said than done but all I can do is try right??