Thursday, April 19, 2012
Right now I am feeling so many emotions inside. None of them however are even close to me getting to the point of me wanting to give up and quit so that of course is great but I still cannot help and feel bummed, I even cried...
For starters this morning was my usually weigh in and the scale was not very nice with me, it did not move at all...not even an ounce. I have been eating very well and exercising a lot more than usual. On the bright side however, at least I did not gain. It is what it is, it won't always be what we want it to be. After that, I still went for my normal 4 mile walk. I was telling my sister about my results and of course as usual, she started questioning me and was not very supportive. For her however, that is typical. Don't know why I bother telling her, but it's the same thing with her every time. I should be used to it!
I started new classes yesterday and boy am I already stressed out. These classes are HARD. I do not want to get to the point where I feel so stressed out that I quit on my weight loss efforts. This is my last year, and I have invested far too much money and time into school. A big part of losing weight is because my career will demand me to be fit, so I better get this body into shape!
I guess everything is just so overwhelming at times and it got to me. Then to top it all off someone told me something over a text message that hurt my feelings. Which may sound dumb, but that person is special to me and has been for a long time. I thought I could count on that person...I'm thinking twice about that.
I have to believe in myself first before anyone else can. I have so many issues I have to deal with on my own before I allow anyone into my life. I know I am a good person that deserves good things in life, and health is the best gift I can give myself. That is why I cannot give up on myself. Other people can come into my life and go, however the ones that stick around are the only ones that will truly matter in the end.
I do hope everything works out for the best..