CALL A SPADE A SPADE...
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
I have about 5 minutes before I have to wash the dye from my hair so this will be short and sweet. Yesterday I wrote a long blog that was my update about how well I am doing because I felt you all needed to know that I haven't been slacking. And that's mostly true, I mean, everyone has their bad days. Weekends are STILL my killer... always have been.
Anyway, while all that I wrote yesterday is true and I AM happy about my progress, I want more! I gotta call a spade a spade - I am truthfully wanting more than I let on in my blog yesterday. I made it seem as though everything is A-Okay, and maybe it should be, but to me, for being 280ish, I should be able to lose more than 5 pounds a month. I want more!!
Yes, I am happy about the pounds and the body fat % dropping, but it's just not good enough. I am a fighter now and I guess for me it's do or die. If I stagnate... well, I get bored and discouraged and I will quit. I don't want to quit so I have got to change something to get that scale number moving on down. I am at 282 AGAIN this morning. I have been this same weight (or a couple pounds up or a pound down) every day for a month now. It's time to make some progress!!
My trainer asked me to track my food for 3 days so she could see it. I HATE tracking food and almost never do it because it's too time consuming and if I am eating right choices I am always on the mark anyway. But in the past couple of days I have been able to see that each day I am usually choosing one thing (if I leave my house) that is a junky choice and I justify it because most of my at home eating is on point. Case and point? Wendy's chili cheese fries yesterday. I went out of the house hungry and I should not have. Fries, chili and cheese are all gluten-free and so I ate them. When I tracked them? 540 calories?? And lots of fat and carbs. Plus, it was our 13th wedding anniversary yesterday and since we are going away for the weekend we decided to just get coffee last night and save the going out for the weekend. But my grande mocha was just over 400 calories as well. I had planned for the coffee, but not the fries, putting me about 200 calories over goal yesterday.
Okay, I have to go wash out the dye before my scalp fries and my hair falls out. I guess my point in all this is just to yell at myself a little and 'fess up and say that I am NOT totally happy with my results and I better step up my game...