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The Busy Weeks with More to Come

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Thank goodness for Thursday!!! That means Friday is right there within my grasp.

I want to say first as much work as I have at the office, I am greatful to have such an understanding boss. Although, at this point, I feel like I am failing my team members at work. I started this new role in January and inherited approximately 130 cases from other team members who really needed to lighten their case load. (They each had about 300 cases). And as busy they were at the time, they did not get hardly any of the analysis done on those cases. So last Thursday I was told they were taking me out of rotation for 2 weeks to get those analysis done and caught up. Yes, my boss was really nice about it. She said then and again today that this is in no way my fault. The fact that I work remotely here in San Antonio, while the majority of my team works in Columbus, OH is a factor. As well as, I am new to their side of the business. It's not the same systems that are being used so I am having to learn how to use them. Even with all that said, I still feel as if I am failing at this and the anxiety has been pretty high.

See, I am not a college graduate. I have a certificate in Paralegal Studies and before that, I was a certified EMT. So I feel as if I am constantly having to PROVE myself to people who are more educated academically than I am. I especially feel this now, as I was not their first choice to hire when I interviewed back in October. I was referred to this team from an attorney I worked closely with in my prior role at the bank. In fact, I was pretty much pushed onto this team by her, I believe.

With all that - comes the end of the year for school with the kids, vacation in less than 3 weeks, and all the normal things we are to worry about. Yes, we have full weekends planned this weekend and next. (This is why I am so EXCITED to be going to MJ's Birthday Bash in the Park!!!). It will be my reward and breather.

It's not like I didn't know about the end of the year stuff with the kids. Field trip for the youngest today at the Children's Museum, which is why I was at HEB so late last night getting her stuff for a bag lunch. Tomorrow the oldest has her 5th grade, going to Middle School end of the year pool party at lifetime fitness. And we didn't know until we got home, that none of the appropriate swim suits she has would fit. So off again I went to get a swim suit, cover up and stuff for tomorrow's event.

Don't get me wrong - I LOVE shopping. I'm a girl....it's in my nature I think. Walking around Super Target without the rest of the family gave me a chance to browse the clothing section for me. Which did nothing but make me even more determined to lose all this extra weight. I want to wear my size 6 Jeans again with the cute girly tops. Not the 14's with my husbands shirts to cover all my flaws. Okay - so I am being materialistic, which is kinda outta character for me. But, with all that's going on and all the different roles I have to play, especially in the coming weeks, I realize that I don't ever get to just be me. No, I wouldn't change anything about my life. Well, okay a few things, like getting rid of the stress and anxiety of the everyday world I currently find myself in; and this weight. But other than that, I would keep everything else.

Well, it's time to go and get the older one from Cheer Practice. This is the last practice before competition at MacArthur High school this weekend. The only reason I didn't put the event on the team page is because of the fact this is not a free event. But if any of you feel like coming and cheering them on, please feel free to do so. Next week, practice is really just a good bye party for them.

I hope everyone has a great evening and Fantastic Friday!!!!
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  • TXLADY110
    Wonderful size 6. I would miss that itty bitty size also.
    I am sure as your go thru all this running you will continue to loose the weight and get your skinny you back.
    I hope that you build confidence in your business skills and realize that they did pick YOU for the job and YOU can do it.

    3257 days ago
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