A horrible last couple of days has brought me down..
Thursday, May 24, 2012
So I was attending a meeting with my son's school Tuesday morning, after having had one yogurt for breakfast and some tea, when suddenly I was just unable to function under so much pain and cramping. I started vomiting and the meeting had to be cut short. I drove straight to the hospital. If It wasn't for the fact that I have my tubes tied and have had a non-exsistant sex life for the past few months, I definitely would have thought that I was in labor... it was so intense!
Hours later and very drugged up I discovered I have a large kidney stone that was just passing into my bladder and that it was almost double the size of an average stone and that it was also infected! I have the best luck ever! I also have e severe bladder infection! So after around 10 hours at the hospital I was finally able to go home, only to go into extreme shock the next morning from either the meds or the pain I am not sure, but the violent shaking and lack of control over my body was painful and scary. It's been vomiting and hot and cold sweats all day today. Yesterday I did not eat anything, as I was on IV I was getting my fluids and I had a couple cranberry drinks when I got home. Today I screwed up and had a Subway sandwich for lunch and then totally ruined it by ordering in pizza. I was just way too tired and not with it enough to cook an elaborate meal that my picky eaters (my three boys) would all actually eat. So when it came I devoured 4 very small pieces of cheese pizza with jalapenos and tomatoes. I must say I still feel SICK from eating all of that, but it was so good and going down so easy at the time.
As I said, being tired will be my very worst enemy in this journey and possibly the one reason I might fail at it all... Feeling so hopeless and absolutely terrible physically from this whole ordeal. Worried about my son that I have been having problems with and worried about the upcoming wedding I have to photograph on Sat because of all of these horrible pains I am having. Oh dear.. I am whining like crazy and I know it is unattractive. But WOW, what a horrible last couple of days.
On a good note, I called some gyms from laying in bed today and made arrangements to check a couple out in the next couple of weeks. I am really hoping I feel better tomorrow because I have a meeting at a gym at 5. It is also my son's 7th birthday tomorrow and I need to shop for gifts, a dental appointment in the morning for my youngest and meeting in the afternoon for my oldest.. oooooh I feel like crying. I hope things get better, I really do. I feel like giving up right now, but I know I have to keep trying.