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Our kittens were born!! Plus desperate to get back on track!

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Today I felt much much better physically. I really hope this means the infection is going away and I can get this kidney stone removed! Let alone the uncomfortable and painful plastic tube in my stomach!

It's been such an emotional roller coaster the last couple of weeks, that's for sure. I am still dealing with my oldest son's behavoir issues and had yet another meeting today with his behavior specialist. Sometimes I can't believe the life I am living, it seems like it's not mine.

I used to be slim, healthy, happy and motivated, now I am dumpy, fat, unhealthy, and super unmotivated. That statement in itself is pretty depressing.

On a MUCH happier note, our little Piper had her kittens last night! I woke up this morning to find two kittens, one that did not make it and she continued on to have three more! So we have four beautiful healthy little sausages of sweetness and I am so excited to watch them grow up. The hard part...will be not giving in and keeping one. I don't need to be fat AND have lots of cats, that just puts me in thee "crazy cat lady" category! I am very happy she had a successful labor and delivery and that the little ones are doing good. My boys were so very excited and catering to Piper's every need. Dave (the father) did not seem too impressed and tried to stay as far away from the situation as possible. Little does he know..... SNIP is his next appointment :-)

I totally blew my diet today in almost every way possible. First thing would be Pepsi... my MORTAL ENEMY. I am addicted in the worst worst way. Second, Subway 6" sub, which.....is OK but the extra cheese didn't make it right. Next was supper at the new local restaurant down the street. I had a Tear Jerker Burger, which was friggen DELICIOUS, and I opted for a greek salad side instead of the fries. Let's face it, that was just not necessary and if I could take it back I most definitely would.

At this point I am wondering...what exactly is it going to take?? My health literally was at a high life threatening risk this past week and yet I am still treating my body like a trash can, not the temple it's supposed to be.

I will not lie the recent situation with my client still stings and lingers on my mind almost all of the time, as it was just a devastating and horrible thing to have happen. I somehow have to push through and forget about it, push it aside and put my health and well being number one.

I rescheduled a big boudoir session this Sunday and moved it to later in the month and I was shocked at how nice and understanding all of my clients were and genuinely interested in seeing me get better. It really makes me think that a higher power may have been working to protect me from working with my recent wedding clients who just are clearly very unkind selfish people. Not the type of people I want to represent that is for sure.

OKAY tomorrow is a NEW day and I plan to make the best of it. NO MORE PEPSI!! I am swollen and puffy like a blowfish and it's not pretty! I am going to do my very best to eat as healthy as I can and rest up my body as much as possible.

Wish me luck!!!

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