ALMOST 6 MONTHS AND 44 POUNDS GONE AND I FALL OFF THE WAGON THIS WEEKEND!
Monday, June 25, 2012
I saddens me to admit that after almost 6 months of watching what I eat, and exercising, I completely fell off the wagon this weekend. I don’t know what came over me. I just didn’t care to follow my plan and threw caution to the wind. This all started on Friday and went on the entire weekend. I know that today is a new day and I have to forgive myself and move on and I totally intend on doing so, but I need to hold myself accountable for what I have done and how this makes me feel so that if I ever feel like I am going down this road again, I can read this blog and “nip it in the bud”. So here goes . . .
Friday - I did not work out as I regularly do on my lunch break at work because I decided to treat myself to a mani/pedi. At night I went to eat at my mom’s house which I regularly avoid because when I am there, I can’t say no to mom’s food. She made pepper steak with white rice and yellow plantains. Mind you, she also made salad. I could have had some pepper steak with salad and called it a night but no, I had the works.
Saturday - Breakfast was healthy just toast with cream cheese and a fat free latte. But then I took my mom shopping and we ended up eating Lunch at a Mexican restaurant called “On the Boarder”. There I had a bowl of chicken tortilla soup and shared brisket tacos with my friend. Again, I could have just stopped at the soup. I was full after the soup. The tacos even tasted salty to me. Then my friend and I decided to go to the movies. At the movies I had a chocolate chip cookie and a small REGULAR coke. For some reason I just did not feel like drinking a diet coke. You don’t know. I love regular coke and have not had it in such a long time. After the movies we decided to go to dinner and went to this new “foodie” restaurant. Each dinner came with an appetizer so I had 2 cheese and Serrano ham croquettes, half a portion of fried calamari flat bread and braised beef tips with mashed potatoes which were entirely too salty. Since I did not eat all my beef tips because they were so salty, I decided oh well let’s have dessert and had a cappuccino flan. Can you believe it? Dessert! What was I thinking?
Sunday – Had an everything bagel with cream cheese from dunkin donuts and coffee for breakfast, mashed plantains with 2 fried eggs and fried salami for lunch and wait it gets better (or worse). Went out to dinner and had pasta carbonara, garlic bread and a cannoli.
I can honestly say that out of the all the food I had this past weekend, the only thing I really enjoyed was the cannoli. Everything else was not worth it. The food did not taste good to me. Oh and by the way, no working out at all this weekend either.
So, there you have it. The worst weekend I have had since I started my diet and exercise plan on January 4, 2012. Completely off the wagon. But, I am back on and holding on firm because this will not happen again. I feel so sick to my stomach today because of all the food. I have no energy and feel nauseous. I don’t know how I am going to get through my lunchtime workout but I am going to do it.
I won’t say that I will never have any slips, because I am human. But, I vow that this won’t happen to me again. Not to this degree. But for now, I am forgiving myself and moving on the healthy way . . .
P.S. - The scale was up 3 puonds this morning. I know it is mostly water weight since I did not drink any water and ate salty food. So I am going to drink my water and hope the pounds go away.