I,'M NOT QUITE SURE I KNOW WHO I AM !!!
Thursday, July 19, 2012
I found out today that my maternal grandfather is not who I always thought he was. My ancestry is very different. I'm not quite who I thought I was, and I don't believe my mother ever knew who her real father was. Another branch of the family has held the secret for years, and those in my mom's immediate branch are all dead. I am clueless! And I want to know. I feel angry because this was not revealed when answers could have been given while life was still had by those who knew the answers to the questions I now have.
I am who I was yesterday. That has not changed, nor will it tomorrow. I am still me, but with a very different set of genetics.
I think for the first time I had an inkling this afternoon of what it most feel like to just learn you have been adopted quite late in your upbringing, and suddenly feeling you don't quite know who you are or where you came from. Not meaning to sound melodramatic here; yet BIG shock all the same.
Beyond this above, I am still struggling to get the food under control, but I will not throw in the towel. Each day is a new beginning, and tomorrow I have another chance to do it better!