Dare to do it ...
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Can anyone tell me why in the world I would make a batch of Macaroni and Cheese this afternoon then eat about 1/3 of the whole batch? It was a small batch, for sure - but really, what was I thinking?? There really isn't any logical answer for this question, but I know it has to do with some serious emotional needs I have today. This a.m. I attended the funeral of a very dear friend, who was also a dear, dear friend of my husband (departed now 26 years) - all 6 of his children participated in the services by singing, or speaking. The love they have for their dad is so evident - and they were all so sincere in sharing their memories. As I sat there listening so intently with tears running down my face as well as theirs, it occurred to me that we say so many nice things about people after they are gone - and wouldn't it be nice if we could have our funerals before we die, so we could reap the joy of having lived a good life. I came home confused and somewhat sad - and then had the "MACARONI and CHEESE MOMENT. But ... Inspiration came along with the Mac and Cheese because when I got my emotional balance back, I determined to start a letter writing campaign to those people who are special in my life and remind them of some mutual memories and good times that we've shared and express my appreciation for them.
Dare I include myself in the letter writing effort? Is it too bold of me to tell myself how much I like me and want the best for me? After all, I doubt I could ever find a better friend, more understanding and compassionate friend for myself than me. IF NOT ME, who? IF NOT NOW, when? I think I'll take the chance and do it!
I think I'll beginy to honor my relationship with myself by honoring my courage to flush the rest of the Mac and cheese down the toilet and fix a salad!!