I ate more than my alloted calories yesterday. I had three meals and two snacks. That is a lot for me. Many days, I have to fudge having three meals since it's more like two meals and a dessert or snack. I have this tendency to skip lunch. I ate no junk food (sweets) to bring up my calories. It was all healthy food. That makes me very happy.
I need to keep my weight up if I'm going on that walk in around a month now. I've figuring on leaving sometime between March 20th and March 31st for the train down to Georgia. I want to start in the beginning of spring and hopefully after all the snow has passed. I don't want to fear getting trapped on a mountain with snow falling. I know once it's April, perhaps late April, I will be suffering from heat on the trail, not cold. It will be hot until I get to New Hampshire if I manage to walk that far.
I wonder if I should try to gain weight before the walk, but then I realize it's a stupid idea. A gain or a pound or two won't give me enough energy for more than a few days on such a walk. Another pound or two of fat won't make much of a difference either way. I need to carry my calories in my backpack, not on my body. I hope hunger on the walk with take care of that need.
I've gained weight while exercising before. I had a job at an amusement park during the summers I went to college. I ate well while I worked that first summer and put back on all the weight I lost while sick the previous year and a bit extra. I gained the freshman 15 the summer prior to college. My weight during my college years was a constant 135 which made me feel very fat and I was called fat during those years by almost everyone and felt helpless to change it. Dieting in high school lead to temporary weight loss and unhealthy practices. Two things, I didn't want to repeat. I figured it was better to be fat than sick so I felt unlovable, unattractive, etc because I felt it was impossible to lose the fifteen to twenty pounds that would make me acceptable. As I said before, I had a round face and dressed poorly in those days so I looked fatter than I was.
I fear losing muscle and bone. I know that I have heavy body density for my size. My size 4 skinny jeans are getting loose. With a twenty-six inch waist and thirty-three inch hips, I'm aware that I'm rather tiny. I read and see there are people that are my size, a size 2, that are underweight while I'm in the higher part of normal at a BMI of just under 23. I figure that my lean body mass, my weight without fat, is around a hundred pounds. I don't know the typical lean body mass of a woman of five two. I would guess that it's ten to twenty-five lighter than mine.
A woman needs at least 13 percent fat to be healthy. At my age, the recommended amount of body fat is between 23 and 32 percent. My body fat according to calculators on Internet is between 18 and 20 percent, so called athletic. This calculator fitness.bizcalcs.com/Cal
puts my lean body mass at 102 pounds and my body fat at eighteen percent. It's says my body fat category is athletic. If I lost an inch on my waist and hips, I would be in the essential body fat category. Therefore, I must be quite lean although my weight is normal.