I Give Up

For the past three days I have eaten UNDER my allotted amount of calories...(Not by a lot....am not going into starvation mode) and today I weighed myself and it says that I'd GAINED Four pounds!! I know I know. Water weight ...yada yada. But this really just isn't FAIR. Why am I even trying? What for???

Seriously.
What would happen if I quit trying? If I stopped analyzing every calorie. What would happen??
I honestly don't know. Maybe I would even lose weight. I don't know. All I know is that I'm sick and tired of being defeated and kicked in the teeth by the lousy scale. I'm not sure how my pants are fitting....I've been wearing elastic waisted ones lately because my others were too snug. Although on Wed. night I wore jeans and had to keep hiking them up because they were falling down.....I could NOT have gained weight since then. Not unless air suddenly has calories.

I'm going out grocery shopping today. What do I buy?? LOts of veggies and fruit. I know. I can't buy myself any treats that much is certain....because it was those few treats I bought myself Last week and the week before, that got me into such big trouble to start with

I cannot WAIT until I can begin to exercise again. I feel like I've been playing piano with both hands tied behind my back without the exercise. It's just impossible for me to get anywhere without it. I'm seriously thinking of starting to exercise tomorrow. It's only a lousy two weeks early. What harm could it do? I don't think there was really any good reason to prohibit me from working out in the first place. My hip is NOT going to dislocate on a recumbent bike or by walking. I could see it if I were doing yoga or working on gym machines. But I'm not. OK. That's what I'm gonna do. I would do it today except I already showered.

Tomorrow. Bike. You and me babe.
I had enough of this nonsense.


NOTE (ADDENDUM)
I just watched today's video by Dr Birdie on Spark Coach. She talked about how hard it is to maintain motivation if the scale is your only measure of success. She suggested we pick three other measures to keep track of.
What she said made sense...and the scale is certainly defeating my motivation.

So what trackers should I pick?
1) How my clothes fit.
2) Compliments people give me
3) My level of consistency with the program overall.

I will try to do this. I will try to pay attention to other factors besides my weight that show that I'm getting healthier.