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The Day I Stopped Making Excuses

Thursday, March 21, 2013

....is today.
I've told myself, "You're fat because you take medicines that keep you fat. You're fat because you can't exercise like other people because of your bad joints. You're fat because of a night time eating disorder. You're fat because you've had to take steroids. And all those things are true. They made me fat.

But here is another truth. I STAY fat because I believe the lies I tell myself.
I STAY fat because I haven't committed myself 100% to doing what I need to do in order to lose the weight and keep it off
I"ve sort of believed that something magical was goign on. That I was not eating much and yet still gaining weight. I believe that I was the exception to the rule of "if what you put in minus what you burn is less than what your body uses, you will lose weight." I believed that didn't work for me.

But of course it does. The problem is that I've not been tracking EVERYTHING. I don't track my overnight cheats. I don't weigh and measure my food...I guesstimate. And of course those guesses are always in "my favor"...Well in that game I've been playing, who wins??? NOt me. i stay fat. I may feel justified in staying fat....but what good is justification? You can't take it to the bank. you can't use it to lose weight.

From this point on , I'm getting serious about this pursuit. No more skirting around the edges. No more cutting myself slack. No more listening to those who tell me lies just to make me feel better. I have things working against me. I do. But that doesn't mean that I cannot lose this weight. It doesn't mean that I'm doomed to fathood.

I have a game plan for the next time I'm in the hospital on IV steroids. I wrote it all out this morning. Information is power. Determination is power.

I'm not going to be beat up by fat any longer. I'm in this fight to win. Yes,, the thought of that commitment scares the bejeebers out of me. It means work. It means gut wrenching honesty. It means all out war

Am I in?

I'm in
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  • JKANT88
    I had a very similar realization yesterday. I finally acknowledged the fact that I have an unhealthy relationship with food and need to start addressing my issues instead of blaming my biology, or the millions of things working against me for weight loss, or my busy schedule, or my arthritis that prevents consistent exercise. The real culprit is how I treat food and the only way to fix that is through willpower and not letting myself make excuses.
    2866 days ago
    You speak my mind!
    I talk the talk but...you get the idea.
    Here's to living the speech.
    2866 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10895053
    You are so right on, Cynthia, once again of course! I used to use that excuse too, of why I couldn't exercise, why I couldn't eat right and why I overate! I know though that my metabolism is so slow because of my low thyroid, but..........if I have to work at it more, I will do just that! We have to get more healthy one way or another and we each figure out our own plan! I sure like yours and I like mine too. Nothing will get in our way! emoticon
    2866 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5645667
    Cynthia Dear . You are so right my friend . I too was making my steroids a excuse . But since finding Sparks.
    Learnt to track food, wearing a fit bit and measuring my food.
    I have lost 65 Kilos .
    When I had the last heart attack , back in August last year, I put nearly 5kilos back on.
    I have lost 4kilos of that extra weight and am nearly at my goal weight again.
    Your nutrition is 80percent of weight loss. Exercise is only 20 percent .
    I am on the same journey as you my friend ,and I understand only to well, what you are going through .
    Much love and many thanks for all your support and loving thought s for Colin and I . emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2867 days ago
  • _LINDA

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    I was on that big yo yo throughout my life, always regaining weight when I was unable to do my exercise and drowning my sorrows in a pail of soda and snacks. In a nutshell, what totally reformed me was Tracking My Food. The first time I ever did it (with Spark People), was that a real eye opener. Got my first weigh scale and was quickly learning the visual of what a real portion size actually was. No cheating. I used a level tablespoon to measure out my nut butter, etc. Was totally focused. Allowed me to get through the year of no exercise (3 major surgeries) without gaining an ounce. Toughest period of my life not being able to exercise. Its my favorite activity in spite of the pain, because it actually helps with it, I feel worse if I just sit or lay around. But you can only do what your body allows. Its the food you have to really focus on, and accurately. Spark's Trackers are accurate, but only if the person is inputting accurate. A lot of time they fall flat on the exercise portion, putting in things not considered cardio and thus getting an inaccurate calorie range for what they are accurately burning. Most household chores are not considered cardio, unless you are vacuuming and moving heavy furniture around for at least 10 min, etc. The only true way to know is a heart rate monitor to see if your rate is in the cardio zone.
    All the best with it! We are here for you!
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    2867 days ago
  • SUSAN727
    Awesome! All the best to you in your journey! I'm in it to win it also...and am in my own journey.

    2867 days ago
    Good for you!! I wish you all the very best!
    2867 days ago
    I love this person`s thought process. I wish you the best in your effort and CONGRATULATIONS. emoticon
    2867 days ago
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