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A Mega Update!

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Wow, where have I been????

Hi. My name is Rachel. And I swear, I’m still alive!

I haven’t posted since January! What the heck?

First the weight. Then all the other stuff.

Going back in time, I realize that I have a pattern. Right around the holidays to right around now I hit an epic slump. A slump where I barely remember anything I’ve ever learned. An abyss. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that my room has no windows and I get no natural light all day long? Maybe it’s just the ebb and flow of life.

Whatever it is, this is my dismal time of year – or rather, the end of my dismal time of year. It was last year, on this day exactly, that I decided to call the Kaiser weight management team. And it’s been almost a year since I started phentermine (I’ve been off of it for 6 months now).

Tuesday I had an appointment with the weight management group. Why? Well it’s been 6 months now since I stopped taking phentermine. I’ve maintained my weight for those 6 months within 3 pounds and now I’m ready to really kick it in to gear and finish this journey I started.

At my lowest I was down 37.6 pounds. Yup. I gained a little back. But what I noticed is that I have been able to maintain within about a 3-5 pound range pretty easily for the last 6 months. Of course, I should have never gained those pounds to begin with (hello dating and the holidays!) but it happened. Talking to the nurse practioner made me feel a little better. She told me she gained 30 pounds dating her boyfriend so I don’t feel so terrible about gaining the 15 that I did. Nonetheless, it needs to go!

Ladies, I’m beginning to realize it’s a fact – you get a boyfriend, you gain weight. Grrr.

I do feel horrible right now – these ten pounds have had a huge impact on me. (I say ten because I was only at my lowest weight for a nano-second!). My pants don’t fit and my body doesn’t feel good. Not going to yoga regularly has also been a huge compounding factor. I have done what I do every year: let work rule my life. But I’m learning. The difference between then and now though is that I wouldn’t have stopped myself – I would have kept gaining until I was back to my highest weight or higher. At least I hit the brakes when I did and not after I gained every single pound back.

I have become a firm believer on the philosophy of resetting your setpoint (Breakthrough Your Set Pont by Blackburn and Corliss. It’s a great book, you should read it!). The argument these doctors make is that you should strive to lose 10% of your bodyweight, then keep it off for 6 months and then lose another 10% and keep it off for 6 months and so on so that your body has a chance to rebalance itself. Over the past year, I’ve lost a net total of 24.6 pounds. 24.6 was 10% of my starting body weight. So at least my body is starting to normalize! Now it’s time to breakthrough that setpoint again! So my new goal is 173.3 to reach and then maintain for the next six months. Baby steps.

So I’m back on phentermine. In positive news, I can say without a doubt that going off phentermine does not mean you instantly gain all of your weight back. Eating cream coated German food at your boyfriend’s parents’ house for Christmas, however, does. I finally feel like I have some energy to do something about it. It is my pattern this time of the year. I’m dragging and don’t have any energy! But I have a few more days of spring break to chillax! And I can’t tell you how much I am looking forward to it!


Ebb and flow.

Now for the rest!

Work has been horrible. I can’t wait for the end of the school year. I come home every day feeling defeated because I can’t do everything. And while I try to keep in perspective that I am the ONLY special education teacher in a K-12 school with 800 kids – and no paraeducator to help – it still kills me because I’m used to giving my job my all. After visiting other schools and districts around the metro area, I realize I am getting the shaft big time. Smaller schools than mine have two teachers with para support. I know I should feel proud that I am able to handle my caseload – but a lot of the time I feel hopeless because I can’t possibly support my students the way they deserve.

The half marathon training is going nowhere. Lol. I haven’t run in a couple of weeks and I’m certainly not following my plan. Time to change that. I’m going to start a modified plan and just do the best I can. If I walk, I walk. No big deal. I just need to get moving again for my own sanity. I ran 5 miles the other day in Cheyenne and I felt great – I don’t know why I’m dragging my feet so much! Just another reason this time of year sucks for me!

On the boyfriend front, things are going well. Of course I’m like any person in a serious relationship – I have my moments where I wonder what the heck I’m doing! But I’m applying for jobs in Wyoming and will be moving to Cheyenne this summer if I can get a job. We will be moving in together and that will be interesting! We both have a lot of stuff!

The move is also filling my plate big time. I used to move all of the time – I was never in the same place for that long. But it’s time for a change. So we shall see! New adventures are on the horizon.

And that’s about it for now! This update was pretty long – so thanks for hanging in there!

Happy Sparking,
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    2876 days ago
    Welcome back! You sound happy and focused, good for you!
    2884 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/3/2013 5:34:21 PM
    Welcome back. It is one day at a time.............that is all we can do. Best wishes to you on your journey to a healthier YOU!!!
    2888 days ago
    Good luck with everything!

    I like the idea of dropping the 10% of body weight for 6 months - never heard of that but it sounds sensible - ty for sharing :)
    2889 days ago
    I know exactly what you mean about the winter slump. The good news is, I come out of it earlier every year, this year I was on track by late January. Last year, it was early March.
    2890 days ago
    Wishing you the best with everything!
    2890 days ago
    I'm still doing phentermine as well. I took a couple months off of it because the brand I got wasn't working but it is now. I'm also taking the 5HTP again that ups your seritonin levels (appetite, good mood hormone) but at a 200mg dosage.

    Good luck on the HM training! I'm upset because I can't train for the one I wanted to do again but I can't until I get my body fixed.
    2890 days ago
    Welcome back! I've taken the last six weeks off and I'm waiting for the holiday to pass so I can put my foot down and get back to work! I'm down 47 from where I started and have another 20 to go.

    2890 days ago
    Lots going on with your life! Best of luck!
    2890 days ago
    First, let me say I'm THRILLED you did fall off the edge of the earth!! Sometimes I think we run on the same cycle with things or at the very least lead parallel lives! :P

    I haven't trained for this half marathon either--I started off well, and then school happened again. *Sigh*

    I am so happy for you though!!! You have a plan :) Good luck job hunting in WY! I understand there are several good options out there and with your special education focus, I'm sure there's a place for you!
    2890 days ago
  • SHERRY28269
    Great to hear from you! The winter is a hard time for me too. Keep up your great efforts and I am sure you will lose another 10% no problem. emoticon
    2890 days ago
    emoticon Seriously, doesn't your case load, like, break 12 laws or something?
    2890 days ago
    Wow! That is a lot of stuff. Good for you for mostly maintaining. I can appreciate teaching and the special ed department. I worked as an aid at a middle school and know that there is a lot more to it than people realize. Congrats on the move and your boyfriend. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2890 days ago
  • KAIKAI80
    Your update was awesome.... LIFE lol ... but your focused so welcome back to this journey of weighloss emoticon
    2890 days ago
    Nice job on taking the bull by the horns. The winter slump is hard - it's so hard to get motivated this time of year! Also, I swear boyfriends and weight gain are synonomous. After meeting my now husband, I quickly packed on 20 pounds. It took me about 7+ months to lose it (and a little more), but I got it off and feel so much better about myself. As for the move, that is totally exciting! Good luck in making it happen.
    2890 days ago
    Have a good day Rachel!
    2890 days ago
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