SP Premium
60,000-79,999 SparkPoints 73,162

I Need this Blog Entry

Friday, April 05, 2013

to figure some things out for myself. I told you about the four hour diet. I was going great guns with that. Then one night I cheated. I told myself it didn't matter if I had a snack that one night. But I've just realized, that just as I cannot have "just one cigarette" even now, after 18 years of not smoking, so I cannot cheat "just once" in my eating plan. I know that seems strict. I know "no one's perfect" but FOR ME, a single cheat undermines and upsets the whole apple cart. What it did was it eroded my momentum, and it made it easier and easier to say "Just this once". Just this "once" became about twenty times.

It is tough to fast. It is even tougher to fast PART of the day. Don't ask me why, but it is. I guess it's because you allow yourself that stinkin thinkin' that says, "I will be eating in X number of hours, why not now?"

When I fast, it is holy to God. And that holiness strengthens my resolve not to cheat. I need to wrap my head around this program one more time. I need to look at it differently and I need to examine for myself why I am doing this. I know it is not good to confuse weight loss fasting with God-fasting....when you fast for God it has to be ALL about Him. And to tell myself that it IS all about God, just so I have more determination to keep the fast in order to lose weight, then that is just wrong.

BUT on the other hand, I have to look at the fast as something kind of sacrosanct in its own right. Like quitting smoking. It has to be kept perfectly....in order to be kept at all. There can be no "wiggle room". Part of what sunk me was that several times I was to be out of my house at noon and would not have the chance to break my fast then. And I was HUNGRY by then....so I rationalized that I could break my fast sooner, before I went out. And that combined with a cheat at night, blew the whole project out of the water.

So here is my plan. I will adapt the hours. I will fast from 6 pm-10:00 AM rather than from noon to 8:00. I don't know for sure if that will work or not. But I"m going to try. I was really struggling to make it to noon. The night time is ALWAYS a tough time but from 6-8 is not so tough because I will have just finished dinner. I just need to take it seriously. It's not HOLY....but it is important. It is important that I obey the rules that I"ve set for myself. I need to remind myself that I set the rules. I chose them. No one is forcing me....I am doing this for me.....so to find ways around it....to cheat, hurts no one but myself.

Thanks for listening. I needed to work that out a bit in my own head. Things were getting cluttered and confused.
Now I have clarity.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
  • no profile photo CD5645667
    Hi Cynthia, your adjustment to your fast time sound so much better. I wish you well xxxHugs Susie emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2725 days ago
  • _LINDA
    That sounds like a way more reasonable time to be fasting. You really do need fuel to carry out the day's activities, including exercise. I would be done without my breakfast to get me going. Its my biggest meal of the day. Might also suggest an early bedtime so you can resist the night time snacking a bit easier. The problem with going such a long time without food is you will get hungry and be susceptible to snacking :( Good luck with it!!
    emoticon emoticon
    2725 days ago
    I bet you will be surprised at the results now that you have this worked out in your head. The Lord will bless you through your struggles! He knows where your heart is, and that your mind will get there. Best of luck! emoticon
    2725 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10895053
    I know it's not holy, but it is important. 6pm - 10am seems doable. Just keep telling yourself how you can do it, how important this is to you, how you've done things before that you've really put your mind to. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2726 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/5/2013 10:39:30 AM
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.