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Doing What I Can

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Today I did my Spark Coach. I've been AWOL for the past three or four days. I was paging through some SparkPages and I encountered a blog which mentioned the 12 Steps to Recovery from addiction. While I do not feel that I have an addiction something the blogger said struck me. "The other side of letting go of things you cannot control is changing what you can." That really hit me between the eyes. There is so much that I can't control....but I have to let go of that and stop obsessing about it and I have to just DO WHAT I CAN.

When I was in the psych hospital last summer I got down to 200 pounds for the first time in close to two years. I was only there for a week.....so what did I do there? Well, I ate my meals (and obviously - they were hospital meals, prearranged not by me) and I had two snacks a day -- always cookies. But I drank OCEANS of water....and I paced the floors of the unit. I walked around and around those 6 hallways....resting on my bed in between. Iwasn't walking to exercise. I walked because there was nothing else to do. And oddly: I lost weight...despite all the Oreos.

Now my house is small, walking around it would just wear out the carpets and it would get me dizzy in these close quarters. However, I do have a staircase of 12 steps. Sometimes what i do is I go up and down the stairs until my legs get shaky or I get too winded to continue. Granted the windedness might be the bigger issue right now. But again. "Release what I cannot control;...and do what i can."

Another thing I can do is just to eat less. Maybe if I set certain times for eating and not allow myself anything in between. Like three meals and two snacks like in the hospital. And they will have to be healthy snacks because I do not allow Oreos in my house.

My husband is interested in doing an eating plan originated by a
Doctor Fuhrman...which is a diet to regain cardiac function in a diseased heart. It consists of three fruits a day and POUNDS of veggies. and nuts and seeds. Nothing else. No pasta ...no bread. NO grains of any kind. It sounds extreme but t is supposed to be really effective and foolproof for reversing heart disease. I will have to investigate it further....but I may actually agree to join my husband on this journey of his. He already weighs less than I do...which is downright embarrassing.

I think I need to also employ visualization some more. PIcture myself attaining all the victories I so desperately desire. Getting off the HTN meds and wowing my doctor when I go to see him having lost a bunch of weight. When I started this journey three years ago....I only did what I could. I only walked as far as I could get each day....never mind if that was only three houses down. I think I have not started small enough. I'm trying to push my body to the middle and skip the beginning.

So my goals for today?
1) to walk a short distance outside
2)to do the stairs 3 times.
3) to drink a LOT of water.
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  • _LINDA
    That is the attitude to have. Do whatever you can do at the present time. I am struggling with all the new pain and disabling elbow nuisance. Its really off balancing to do an intense workout and only have one arm swinging around and pushing a weight, its like I am only doing half a workout :P Not being able to do my favorite Kickboxing video is a real blow. But on the bright side, for whatever reason, I can still do my elliptical and it doesn't bother my elbow. Some day we may even get spring and it might be pleasant to get out and walk.
    I eat a mostly fruit and veggie diet. In fact, when I was in weight loss mode, I rarely had any grains at all. For two reasons: they quickly ramp up the calories and gave me too much fiber (the freggies gave me all I needed) I think you would be far better off doing the freggie thing. Investing in a serious juicer/blender should be a consideration -you can then make soups with all the veggies with very little prep time needed. Same with smoothies. I had an awesome sample of a carrot ginger cilantro soup made in two minutes by a Vitamix demonstrator. Was incredible! Leads me to think I might actually be able to get into healthy soups instead of the cold, chew them up massive salads that I normally eat. The veggies are more bioavailable consumed this way too. Getting your vitamins naturally like this is a far better way to go. I like to think my choice of eating lots of them raw has lead to me never catching colds or flus or other viruses.
    Good luck with your goals, you can do it!!
    PS. maybe they have a newer and better combo for the inhaler. Whatever you do, don't try the same one again if it did no good before, thats just a waste of money.
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    Sounds like a great plan Cynthia ... Much easier and attainable xx go for it my friend .
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    You might find that dropping the grains will make a big difference on the scale! It works for lots of us.

    I think your plan for the day sounds terrific! Try taking note of exactly where you walk outside. If you're feeling good when you get back from your walk, then tomorrow walk just the smallest bit further. You'll be surprised how quickly you'll find yourself doing more than you thought possible. emoticon
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