Saturday, May 18, 2013
Today I'm going out. I will likely be out at lunchtime. I do not know what I should do about food. I can't really bring a salad with me because I'm going with a friend who is not bringing food. Besides I'm kind of sick of salads. The things in town which are the most conducive to my diet are a salad at Perkins or a veggie burger and salad at Jake's Wayback burger. I'm kind of broke so hate to spend any money on a meal...never mind how good it sounds. Chances are good though that he will just have eaten a big breakfast out and I will be out of luck until I get home and then I will have to eat leftovers which doesn't sound at all appealing but is inexpensive.
So I guess it's either a win/win or lose/lose depending on your perspective. I will CHOOSE to look at it as win/win.
I DID have a fairly good workout today. Did some strength work on my arms and abs and then did 20 minutes on the recumbent bike. So that is one positive. Trying to look for good things in my day. I don't know what I'm gonna make for dinner. Dinner is always a HUGE source of anxiety for me. I get anxious about cooking....about whether or not my husband will eat it primarily. I need to divorce myself from that concern. I need to look at it like "I"m cooking for ME....if he wants to eat some of it, he's welcome to but if he doesn't like it: TOO BAD." Why CAN'T I look at it like that? Why should I have to fear displeasing him? In fact if there is a meal that I think sounds good, I should just make it even if I KNOW it's something he won't eat. I'm doing this for me. He's a big boy and can pour himself a bowl of cereal if he wants to.
I need to simply divorce myself from concern about his likes and dislikes because face it: he's like Mikey: HE HATES EVERYTHING....and I'm tired of living in fear of his displeasure. So yeah. I need to start cooking for me. My daughter is pretty amenable and if she doesn't like something she will find something else. Resolution carried with no "nays"