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The Trade Off

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

I've been struggling. My schizophrenia has been symptomatic...Yesterday was my daughter's 21st birthday. My plan of a single small slice of ice cream cake and a salad for dinner turned into two pieces of cake and some ziti. I thought I would really relish it and savor it. Turns out I ate it mindlessly and today feel like crap as a result. My anxiety levels were high--something that had not bothered me since I changed my diet. I am convinced that even one day of eating poorly is reflected in how badly I'm feeling.

Plus My husband insisted that he increase my SZ med...which he did and which MAY have helped however it has also given me hot/cold flashes which happens when that one med level is high. So I'm going to insist he lower it back to normal today. I just hope that the SZ symptoms do not worsen. If they remain as they are,I can manage....If they worsen it may well be a hospital stay down the road.....and I dread that because not only are other meds noneffective with me, they also have awful side effects like massive weight gain. I simply cannot risk that.

Even Dr. Fuhrman does not claim to cure serious mental illness....but I'm thinking that it can't hurt to eat cleanly, a plant based diet, nutrient dense. Of course he talks about the dopamine blasts that we get from eating junk food that tastes good. And SZ is essentially a shortage of dopamine....so it is conceivable that with those blasts of dopamine removed, our symptoms can worsen. However the anxiety definitely has dissipated. So it's a matter of finding a tenuous balance. A place where things are tolerable. That can be hard to do.

People with SZ self medicate with coffee, cigarettes and marijuana....all those things offer short term relief of symptoms--but long term they are all destructive. Short term, this diet may increase symptoms....but long term will help me to live longer and live healthier.

I can only believe that this is the path to better health and increased well being. I will continue to pursue it to the best of my ability....and will get on track immediately pursuant to yesterday's downfall. I'm paying for it today. Back to healthy living so tomorrow will be a better day.
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    One day with a slip-up can be like a road with a dip in it. You feel it but then right away you're on steady road once again. You'll be fine, while on the road to better health. emoticon xoxo Karen
    2670 days ago
    The Lord's mercies are new every morning (Lam 3)! what a promise, eh? :)

    2670 days ago
    Oh my dear Cynthia! I support you 100%. Everything is going to be ok. The healthy eating pattern you are pursuing can't be anything but RIGHT!!

    Hang in there! Never, ever give up!

    2670 days ago
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    Hi Cyn Dear,
    You were doing so well, one day shouldn't make any difference. Just try to get back on track as soon as possible.
    I reckon you have it all worked out and know the triggers . One day at at time dear friend .. Love and Hugs Susie emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2670 days ago
    You sound right on track to me..
    one day at a time that's all we can do, one moment at a time.
    2670 days ago
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