The Inner Woman Revealed
Saturday, June 08, 2013
Something I'm getting used to is seeing the scale move down maybe three pounds....sometimes four. And then seeing it climb back up two or three pounds. Now I've done absolutely nothing to gain weight NOthing. I've been good as gold. But it NEVER FAILS that this is the pattern. So I'm painfully, slowly inching my way down the scale. My lowest thus far is 198. Although today the scale said 202. I refuse to get upset about it. I know part of the story is my continuous battle with my bowels and the constipation caused by morphine.
This morning we had to take our princess kitty back to the vet. She has a lesion on her tummy that is infected. A result of eating food that she was allergic to ....she lost almost all of her fur because of that. Poor kitty is so traumatized she has been hiding under my bed ever since we returned home. She HATES riding in the car and she hates going to the vet. I don't blame her. Some pretty painful things have happened to her in that office. Poor baby.
As far as exercise goes....I've done none since my 45 minute walk last week. I need to get off my butt and start to exercise. I just dread it..... I know I would begin to like it and look forward to it if I could just break through the first week or so. I'm going to try to do that this coming week. Just suck it up and do it. Like the Nike shirt says, "Just F'n do it"
I've been knitting for the past couple of days ....working on a bolster pillow for my mom's birthday. It will be pretty once it's done.
Money is tight this month. I ordered a couple of things that I probably shouldn't have. It's such a relief in the beginning of the month to have some money and to feel like I can breathe again, it's hard to practice restraint so that I'm not broke by the third week of the month. I hate getting paid once a month. And having a fixed income just sucks. Groceries have been taking such a huge chunk out of my money. This Fuhrman diet is kind of expensive. It's so unfair that junk food should be cheap. ...and it's not fair that good food is almost never on sale and you never find coupons for it. I would like to go to a farmer's market. It's the right season...I just don't have a way to get there. I so miss my car. It's terrible to rely on friends to get anywhere.
Tonight I think is a night for leftovers. My daughter won't be home so it's just DH and me. This week on Friday my dad picked me up to go to the doctor and he said to me, 'Where's the other half of you?" It felt so good to have someone say I look smaller. It's one thing to see the scale go down but another to have someone say I look thinner. So slowly, pound by slow pound, we are whittling away this body and one day my inner woman will be obvious for every one to see. She won't be hidden away behind folds of fatness. I can't wait for that day.