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The Inner Woman Revealed

Saturday, June 08, 2013

Something I'm getting used to is seeing the scale move down maybe three pounds....sometimes four. And then seeing it climb back up two or three pounds. Now I've done absolutely nothing to gain weight NOthing. I've been good as gold. But it NEVER FAILS that this is the pattern. So I'm painfully, slowly inching my way down the scale. My lowest thus far is 198. Although today the scale said 202. I refuse to get upset about it. I know part of the story is my continuous battle with my bowels and the constipation caused by morphine.

This morning we had to take our princess kitty back to the vet. She has a lesion on her tummy that is infected. A result of eating food that she was allergic to ....she lost almost all of her fur because of that. Poor kitty is so traumatized she has been hiding under my bed ever since we returned home. She HATES riding in the car and she hates going to the vet. I don't blame her. Some pretty painful things have happened to her in that office. Poor baby.

As far as exercise goes....I've done none since my 45 minute walk last week. I need to get off my butt and start to exercise. I just dread it..... I know I would begin to like it and look forward to it if I could just break through the first week or so. I'm going to try to do that this coming week. Just suck it up and do it. Like the Nike shirt says, "Just F'n do it"

I've been knitting for the past couple of days ....working on a bolster pillow for my mom's birthday. It will be pretty once it's done.

Money is tight this month. I ordered a couple of things that I probably shouldn't have. It's such a relief in the beginning of the month to have some money and to feel like I can breathe again, it's hard to practice restraint so that I'm not broke by the third week of the month. I hate getting paid once a month. And having a fixed income just sucks. Groceries have been taking such a huge chunk out of my money. This Fuhrman diet is kind of expensive. It's so unfair that junk food should be cheap. ...and it's not fair that good food is almost never on sale and you never find coupons for it. I would like to go to a farmer's market. It's the right season...I just don't have a way to get there. I so miss my car. It's terrible to rely on friends to get anywhere.

Tonight I think is a night for leftovers. My daughter won't be home so it's just DH and me. This week on Friday my dad picked me up to go to the doctor and he said to me, 'Where's the other half of you?" It felt so good to have someone say I look smaller. It's one thing to see the scale go down but another to have someone say I look thinner. So slowly, pound by slow pound, we are whittling away this body and one day my inner woman will be obvious for every one to see. She won't be hidden away behind folds of fatness. I can't wait for that day.
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    How awesome is that your Dad is noticing your weight loss??
    Poor kitty, more problems :( Vet trips are no fun and cats are not used to being handled.
    That is good on you to recognize why your weight keeps coming on and off. I had the same problem until I upped my fiber to more then the daily recommended amount. I really miss the narcotic though, it was more effective for pain relief then this gabapentin.
    I wonder if getting involved with a farmer's coop would be right for you. Essentially you pick a size package that involves regular delivery of seasonal veggies from a Farmer each month. You pay an up front standard fee. As the Farmer's crops fare, so do you. Depending on what they have success with is what you get. It can be anything and will probably introduce you to new veggies. But having everything delivered is the nice part. If I wasn't single I would have looked at it though supposedly have small packages for singles. I don't know if it would be more economical then buying at a Farmer's market (where they have to pay costs for a table) I like the idea of grower direct..
    Keep up the great work!
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    2661 days ago
    Poor kitty. I hope she starts to feel better right away - and forgets about the trauma of going to the vet. Cats always hate that.

    Cynthia, I think you're doing a great job. The same kinds of things happen to me with my weight that you describe. My BIGGEST problem is NOT ENOUGH EXERCISE! I could just kick my butt that I can't get moving. You know, when you're in pain, it's like torture to try to exercise.

    Your dad is a sweetheart to compliment your progress. That can mean so much to our future success!

    Blessings to you and yours for the weekend!
    2661 days ago
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    Such a sweet compliment from your dad and you deserved it. What a sweetie to lift you up like that. That's just like a friend from town that I hadn't seen for awhile and she said about the same thing to me. It made me feel so, so good because I've put around 12# or so with being on this Humira! It's so frustrating and lately it's acting like it's not working as well and yet I know I've been working in the garden and flowers, so no wonder I hurt more too! Hope that your kitty feels lots better soon! I know what you mean about healthy food never being on sale! Errrr! Our farmer's mkt. don't start until July or so and besides that, it'll probably be later this summer with the slow, cool, wet spring we've had. Our tomato plant are about the same size as I bought them. Have a great rest of the week-end!

    Hugs, Karen
    2661 days ago
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    Hi Cyn,
    Just love that you are sticking to your plan, and seeing such fabulous results.
    Hope kitty gets better soon ..
    What a lovely compliment from your dad.
    I too love the farmers markets for my fruit and veggies.
    Always looks so much fresher and therefore healthier.
    I am in less pain this week and I think it is due to the clean fresh food.
    Hugs Susie emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2661 days ago
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