This back and forth garbage is for the birds!
I have been on a crazy journey over the last year. Not being consistent with anything health related. Sure, I'd run a few miles here and there through the week but wow my eating habits are horrid!
I WAS doing great in that area, I WAS working out 6 days a week, I WAS losing weight and toning muscle...so what happened?
Well, I can tell you all I do know is that I'm tired of it.
My motivation is not a picture on the fridge, my husband or kids, a pair of pants 3 sizes smaller...(it use to be al these things)
My motivation is focusing on the one who cares about me more than anyone. The one that not only wants me to be physically healthy but also spiritually and emotionally healthy.
Look, I'm not going to go all "Bible Beating" on you all, I'm just saying that my motives have been of this world, what people think I should look like, what the media says we should do and so on. My focus has been on what others think! Who the heck cares what Joe Schmoe thinks of me!
The truth is, God gave me this body and I'm suppose to take care of it. I have been praying a lot lately about why I'm doing this to myself. Yes, over the last year my relationship with God has grown tremendously and it is amazing what He has done in this family! One of the many things that has been revealed to me is to appropriate Christ in my daily walk...at work, with my kids, husband, strangers I meet in the grocery store...allowing Christ to live through me so that others can experience His glory (not mine). His is my strength, not "Lord,will you give me strength"...BE my strength...BE my patience...Take this burden! Which is what He is doing.
I asked Him, why is it that I can appropriate you in my life at work or in the car even but not in my journey to a healthier me? Why can't I do that? I should do that shouldn't I? And after about 3 days of really getting down to it, I was approached by a woman/member at the Y about a Bible study. (She knows me and what I've been going through) It's called Made to Crave...hmmmm? It was about...appropriating Christ in this journey! I couldn't believe it! Just started it but wow...If anyone's interested I'll let you know what I think when I've finished it.
Sometimes we have to come to the end of "self" and let God take over. I am at that point with this struggle in my life. Does this mean I sit back and say "OK God, melt the fat away!" Lol, no. It means when I wake up in the morning and go to the gym. I'm doing it to glorify the Lord, not myself, not for others, not for this world. I'm doing it so that He can use me in whatever way He wants to carry out His plan and I can't wait to get started!