In need of a pep talk!
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
So, I've done weight loss before, very well in fact. So well that it seems I am doing it all over again. Let me step back. 2 years ago, as a new years resolution, I wanted to quit smoking and to lose weight. Then it just so happened that we played Biggest Loser at work. I was doing fantastic and on Atkins I was losing something like 1-3 lbs a week. I was so busy working on losing weight that I didn't have time to think about smoking. Both were going great, better than great!!
So, if any of you know me from my posts for the past few years, work isn't any better. We are still doing 10 hr days and no breaks. I am now the 2nd best person in my department. We still get no rewards, no validation, no consequences for those who don't work. I work harder than anyone and I get nothing for it. Its such a terribly heart breaking job on top of that. I move people all over a hospital, and all ages. This means even those on the edge of life. All of this physical work, (on average I walk 10 miles a day, and pushing obese people up and down ramps) my brain is drained.
From my previous posts you all know that I sort of swing from the spark diet to atkins. Not on purpose, but because of urges. I do find myself happy with the menu on atkins but I still crave those not good things. I appreciate the atkins diet because it opened my eyes to food and what I was really eating. I never studied something as hard as I did atkins, though I still have questions.
Anyways, I went back on to atkins 7 days ago and I've been smoke free for 2 weeks. I am very proud of myself but at the same rate, I'm ashamed. This is where the pep talk is needed. I've almost transformed myself back into a noob and I know the answers to my questions, I just need to hear/read other members saying them to me, if that makes any sense at all.
My issues are, I don't feel as though I've lost any weight.
* Yes, I know its only been 7 days)
I feel awful in my skin because I let myself go when I said I never would.
* On my wedding day, I weight something near 136. I still can't believe it, now I'm back to 156 after the wedding because it was such a relief to have the stress over.
I am scared to look at the scale.
* I told myself I wasn't going to weigh myself until 2 weeks, not sure about that.
My husband doesn't like me on atkins because he can't cook for me as easily.
* I gave him 3 cookbooks to go from and the atkins bible.
Someone give me the advice I already know, I just need to hear others say it.