Debby Downer Eats Her Emotions :(
Friday, August 23, 2013
Alright, restart, again again again! I know I've been here for a while but I still stumble, a lot. So I haven't stepped on the scale since I've been on this Atkins kick and I don't want to. I feel as though I haven't lost any.
Today was a rotten day. I had 7 days off and today was my first day back. It was rough hard work and by the end of it I was just upset about how I let these things happen in my life and I hate myself for it. Then I had my interview. So my pre interview yesterday was 15 min and worthless. Today, I met a "lead" person at a Sam's Club. He was a 20 something rotten brat. Ok, if you have seen "Employee of the Month" he's the same guy as the head cashier. Cocky and pushy and just a twat! he was promoted to lead after less than 50 days. The lady that interviewed me yesterday was promoted to a owner in less than a year and is said to be making $90,000. I can't say I totally believe this job is real. It seems like a pyramid scheme.
So, I had my meals all planned out all day and I was doing good. Sigh, my sweet tooth has been crazy lately and so I bought 10 bags of sugar free candies and tossed them in the freezer. Another reason I don't think I'm losing is because I over do my fake sugar intake every day. So I am going to eat my emotions and eat more than I should today and start clean tomorrow. I work all weekend and that's also bringing me down.
I'm just sad sad sad today. I figured my fake sugar intake wasn't working in my favor but I guess I needed time to realize it. Eck, I'm so mad. I just don't understand myself! What's a good amount of fake sugar for a day? Or 3x's a week? *shakes her computer* someone help me!!