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Fear vs Acceptance

Monday, September 16, 2013

Fear. F.E.A.R.
Four letters.
A pretty short and insignificant word...

Acceptance. A.C.C.E.P.T.A.N.C.E.
10 letters.
Long and attention grabbing...

What's my point? Hm. Well, I'm approaching what I think and hope will be the end of the road for me. The end of dieting and the beginning of maintaining. Keeping up who I've worked so hard to be!! (I'm 13 pounds away).

But, what happens when fear of not being as happy as you expected to be takes over?
What if I want to lose more weight? And more fat? And trim and tone some more? What if I am not happy with loose skin and it makes me depressed and unhappy and, gasp, EAT! And the fear kicks in. The stress levels go up. The scale does not budge.

I have weighed 153 pounds for the last 3 weeks. I feel as though my fear of not being satisfied and happy with my body is sabotaging my efforts.
I am in no way veering off track though. I am exercising and eating right...other than sucking on 1 - 2 blow pops a day (which is new)...I still have my eyes on the prize.

I am looking at all sorts of before and after pictures and I actually get upset because I don't think I will ever look like that. I don't want to weigh 105 pounds. EVER. I don't want to be that thin. I want to be that toned though!!! I don't want cellulite or all this jiggle...but, how can I have one without the other??? I am only 5'2", so a 140 pound goal weight isn't, ummmm, very sleek/fit/toned.

What are some ways to just accept yourself as you are and not focus on being "perfect"????
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  • ICEDEMETER
    I honestly couldn't say how it would be done, but the only thing I can suggest is to change the focus from "how does my body look" to "what can my body do"...

    Does some loose skin really mean more than the fact that you can walk/jog for miles? Is a bit of cellulite more important than being able to play for hours with your daughter and husband? Does a spot or two of extra fat really take anything away from being able to carry whatever you want to without having to think twice about it?

    It sounds like you've got the eating and the cardio down to what is a comfortable and happy part of your life, so you might want to start doing some serious strength training - focusing on full-body exercises that will really show results in what your body can DO.

    Kudos on your success so far, and good luck in working past this little bump and getting back to enjoying your healthy lifestyle!
    2564 days ago
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