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Friday, October 18, 2013

Today, my head is in the right frame of mind and I am eating healthy food, but I'm not feeling any 'thinner', even though some of my clothes are starting to loosen up a bit. My frustration stems from an annoyance because I have let myself gain back weight and I feel terrible and look worse So...shoulders back and snap out of it. But how? I'm going to try a modification of BradMill2922 blog from last week that really resonated with me. It was called Remember. I hope that these feelings will be something that I can recall this time next year -- because that will mean that I have succeeded and reached my goals of a healthy mind and body. Here goes...

How I felt a month ago:
Physically exhausted, no energy at all, couldn't really lift my legs well to walk, massive headaches, lack of sleep, body systems out of whack. Emotionally tortured, irritable, embarrassed, and lackluster. I dreaded the thoughts of going out socially (although I had to go to work every day), and I was wearing the same clothes repeatedly because that's what fit. I postponed doctor appointments because I did not want to get on a scale. It seemed like I was in a trance. I was eating whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, and I took no responsibility in my actions with regard to my physical well being.

How I feel today:
Hopeful. Resolved to do well today, and committed to staying the course. I have had many instances where I was not perfect in my food choices but I have been able to treat these 'variances' as a standard deviation, and not a licence to retreat. Tomorrow will be a new day, and I intend to do more of the same. I understand that I am still in the honeymoon phase of my journey, and that tougher days will be upon me, but perhaps I'll cheat a little and remember my past before the year is up... and that will help me get past the next roadblock.

September 2014...here I come!

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  • 922012
    We didn't gain the weight and the self-realization that comes with it overnight and we will not lose the weight and change the self-realization that comes that overnight.

    We have good days, great days, bad days, sad days, and days when we wanna throw in the towel.

    It's a process, a journey, and you will get there.

    Every day you get a little closer whether you see it or realize it.

    Just keep going.

    You can do this!
    2568 days ago
    Hang in there and keep thinking positive. We're all in this together.
    2568 days ago
    I read that same blog the other day when in the dumps. It moved me to get back on track.

    Keep moving forward. Have a great weekend!

    2568 days ago
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