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A children's book says it all

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

I remember reading my children a book about a 'Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day'. I looked it up and found it on Amazon:

That was my day yesterday. Why I can be in a positive state of mind one minute, but be so very tempted the next? Why am I invigorated by starting a meaningful walking program, but filled with despair when I step on the scale? How can I be so motivated and encouraged by what I read from my SparkSupport community and then allow self doubt to overtake my thoughts? Yesterday, I succumbed to my destructive food temptations. emoticon Why? Well, I've felt myself sliding, AND I did not see the results that I wanted on the scale. Double whammy. Instead of shaking it off, I choked. And then I ate some more. emoticon
So what to do now? Well, I'm awake at 3AM with an upset stomach, massive headache, and filled with those same awful emotions that I've felt before. I'm fairly certain this could be categorized as a food hangover. I have to -- I want to-- change this pattern. So my plan for today is to get back on the main road and keep moving forward. I'm not beginning again, just accepting that my inner compass got turned upside down again. (Hmm...I do have a horrible sense of direction...maybe there's a connection).
I'm a list maker and boy, do I need a list. So for today I will:
1. Drink lots and lots of water. Maybe that will help flush the sugar out off my system and reduce this awful throbbing in my head.
2. Walk for a half hour at lunchtime. I tried to tell myself that my zero pound weight loss last week was muscle mass increase. Please. I walked for 3 days. Muscle mass is still a wish and a prayer away. But I do want to be physically active, and walking at lunchtime is a realistic way for me to do this. So my walking shoes are under my desk and out I'll go.
3. Track everything I eat. I'm a 'guesstimator' and to date, I've figured that if I stay under or on the low end of my calorie range, that will give me a cushion. Ha. Do I think that I was born yesterday? The only cushion that gives me is the one on my rear end. And I don't like that cushion so much anymore...
4. Stay off the scale for two weeks. Not for avoidance, but to allow me to focus on eating the right foods, in the correct proportion, and without obsessing on my long term goal. It's too overwhelming right now and I have to get my mind off of it.

So on I go... Maybe I'll re-read that children's book. As I recall, it had a happy ending. And that's what I want too.
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  • no profile photo CD13976750
    So glad you have joined us to walk. Come and visit the walk with purpose thread, it will give you something to concentrate on while you are walking - and you won't think about food. Staying away from the scales sounds like a plan too.

    Hope that headache goes, they are miserable.

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    2564 days ago
    You've got the right attitude. You're not going to let this one horrible, terrible very bad day defeat you...and trust me, it won't be the only horrible, terrible, very bad day you have. They'll get fewer and far between. Walking WILL help. Sugar is not my "demon" so don't think I've experienced that food hangover....but I'll take your word for it!

    2564 days ago
    Great job getting a plan in place! And staying off the scale is a great idea, change your focus.

    I used to read a disney book to my daughter when she was little. Throughout the story they repeated "slow and steady, steady and slow, that's the way we always go."

    2564 days ago
    Hang in there...I am totally familiar with food hangovers, but with awareness comes change...you are aware, therefore, change is on the horizon.

    I look at these times as a bend in the road...nothing to do but keep moving along...and refrain from rehashing it all...nothing can be done to change the past, but the future...that on the other hand...is under our jurisdiction.

    emoticon Enjoy your walk!
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  • 922012
    Stuffing your feelings down inside you with food to punish yourself will not help you. You absolutely positively have the right to express your emotions. Know that you can do everything it is you need to be doing every day and yet the scale will not change. Do not let that affect you.

    Think about this: There are plenty of changes occurring right now you can't yet see. I hope you're taking monthly measurements and if not, I strongly encourage you to do so. The scale is great at showing you your relationship with gravity. That's all it does. It doesn't show or tell you anything else about yourself.

    I encourage you to use a digital kitchen scale and measuring spoons to help accurately portion out your food and also to track each food eaten. It will go a long way to helping you reach your goal.

    2564 days ago
    Good Luck!
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