Sunday, November 24, 2013
My weight seems to be stabilizing ...I'm still eating too much. My face looks like a chipmunk with its mouth full. I can't wait for the day when the steroids lose their grip and I pee out gallons...and I get rid of the majority of this swelling.
Right now I have an ice pack on my shoulder. I'm really wishing right now that I would have had that shoulder surgery. The shoulder has turned a corner...It hurts SERIOUSLY ALL the time. And if I lift up my arm to do anything it makes me choke back a scream. It really seriously hurts: to the degree that it's waking me at night...every time I move. Fortunately I do not move very much at night. The ortho surgeon had said maybe we could still get the surgery done this year. Really? This late? It would totally screw up the holidays....and my family would probably resent that. On the other hand...thinking of waiting two more months to get this done sounds like an eternity of pain. I will call him (the surgeon) tomorrow and see what needs to be done and what kind of time frame we are looking at.
I decided to cook on Thanksgiving. The way I'm feeling at the moment worries me...I wouldn't be able to cook if I feel the way I'm feeling right now. I will have to pray for strength and a lower pain level on Thursday.
Tomorrow I have an appointment with my pain management doctor....but I haven't been able to make contact with the man who said he would drive me so I don't know if I'm going to have a ride or not. I do so miss the days when I could grab my car keys and go anywhere i needed to go.It is a great sadness to know that my driving days are over.
well, if I'm going anywhere tomorrow, I need to go to bed. Good night all.